New Moon
New Moon

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The moon is 27 days old

Wicca

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras.  It was glorious.

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras. It was glorious.

We are coming upon the time of the second harvest, Mabon.  Before going into my plans and talking a little more about Mabon, yes I know it’s not actually an old name, that it was made up to sound old and blah blah blah.  I will continue to use it, because it resonates and speaks to my original roots in Wicca and new age spirituality almost 20 years ago.

As I was saying, it’s time for the second harvest.  This is the Autumnal Equinox, opposite the Vernal Equinox for spring.  The two days where the day is evenly split between light and dark.  For me, I take this time welcome the harvest that I am reaping in this year’s magickal workings.  There, of course, has been a lot going on in my year.  I have seen huge changes and shifts in my own life that speak to a more peaceful and abundant future.  I am working at healing myself on every level so that I can ultimately find true happiness WITHIN as well as out.  It’s a lot of work.

As my shifting perspective moves from summer into fall, I come to several conclusions about the year thus far.  It has been hell on wheels.  It has been transformative.  It has been amazing.  It has been sad.  It has been angry.  My goals are simple, I want to be healthier, I wanted my friends to stick by me as I went through some personally trying and dark stuff.  I needed people to understand that I am not going to always be right there and ready or willing to do things or even talk all the time.  I have to be able to do this self-healing work.  I’m sorry that my healing affected my friends.  That was never my intention.  I am a different person than I was even two months ago.

Every morning, I wake up and breathe deeply, thankful that I have made it to another day.  Each morning, I give my family all the love I have and then I give the same amount to friends that cross my path in that day.  It will not always be the same people but everyday I am sending a little more love into the world.  You see, the more I love myself, the more I have to share with the world.  My mind is expanding, it’s perceiving things differently and I am more balanced than I have been in years.  Not there yet, but it’s happening.

This Mabon, I am going to make my red wine Mabon Pot Roast, I am going to share that with friends and family.  What is left, I might just package up to give to some homeless folks.  I am thankful to still be here.  I am thankful to have friends who truly care about me.  I am thankful to the family that loves me.  I am thankful to my Coven.  I am thankful to my Circle.  I am thankful to my Tribe.

What are you thankful for this Mabon?

Altar from September.   Some of the stones have changed but the feeling is the same.

Altar from September. Some of the stones have changed but the feeling is the same.

A lot of things have been floating in and out of my head lately.  Some of them about life and weight and health while others are about how I can, energetically and spiritually get through this dark night and continue my personal evolution.  Each thought that comes to me I try to acknowledge it so that I can hopefully remember it.  Right now the magick of the moment is daily practice of my path and finding health together.

What is daily practice?  As with all things, it’s a matter of perspective.  Each of us will find something different that is vital to our spiritual growth and well being.  For me my daily practice is simple, elegant in a manner and meaningful to me.

I have a friend who has not had “sacred space” readily available for about three years.  That’s not to say she’s stopped practicing just she’s been doing it on the fly and nothing of permanence has been set up for her in her own home.  I took some time today to help her do some cleaning and I set up some sacred pieces for her then smudged.  The house definitely felt different after the fact and I can tell that things will start to improve for her.  I see things getting better.  She just needed someone to come in and help her get it started after a move.

Anyway, I digressed greatly.  Magick and Practice does not have to be these big grand gestures.  They do not have to follow a formula or a specific set of correspondences.  Do you FEEL something different?  Then go with it.  Spirit calls to us in different ways.  Why do we have to follow the “old rules” when life changes and evolves?

Do the Gods appear differently to you?  That’s ok.  Is your altar set up in the North?  That’s ok.  Do you prefer a crystal for a wand and an antler for an athame?  That’s ok too.  Spirit is fluid.  Some of my own personal practices go against the grain.  I do sacred showers instead of baths for ritual cleansing.  I use stones at the directions to correspond.  I do candle magick daily and with simple candles and intentions.

Gemstones are a huge part of my practice and I ALWAYS have them nearby so that I can draw on their wisdom and energies to keep my stresses lower and my light brighter.  Right now on my altar is Black Moonstone. Aqua Obsidian, Skeletal Quartz, Chlorite Phantom Quartz, Clear Quartz, Red Hematoid Quartz, Pink Lemurian Quartz. Tibetan Lemurian Quartz, Selenite, Kambaba Quartz and finally Opal Aura Amethyst.  Each of these lend me their energies throughout the day for various purposes and healing.  If I am feeling stressed…I just take a moment and grab the piece that calls to me and breathe with my eyes closed.  It’s amazing.

If you are a fire person keep a jar candle in your sacred space and light that up every day.  Jar candles such as Yankee, Ashland, and Village have amazing scents and the jars can be reused once they are finished with.  Candles don’t have to be magically poured to work for intention.  YOU set the intention and the purpose for it.

Now go out there and do your own wonderful, amazing and beautiful magick!

at Hann's Park under a Willow tree near the stream

at Hann’s Park under a Willow tree near the stream

So this weekend was a pretty busy one…then again they all seem to be busy. I have started to really work with gemstones and some very personal workings that I started earlier this year. I am feeling a real difference.

This weekend I made a few decisions that I can share with you:

  • I will blog three times a week
    • Monday’s will be weekend musings
    • Wednesday will be Gemstones + Magick
    • Friday will be freeform whatever comes to mind.
  • Starting with the new moon tonight I am digging in deeper to some much needed shadow workings.
  • I wrote the ritual for tonight and it’s great. LOL
  • Daily House of Night Oracle draws are back on.

Aside from all of these decisions I am starting to feel the fog of an ongoing Dark Night of the Soul begin to lift up.  There is still work to be done but the fog is not as thick as it once was and for that I am grateful.  I am feeling some real joy in life and the world around me as the depression that has hung on in this dark night starts to alleviate some of its stranglehold.

I started preparing for guests arriving at the end of this month.  There is not a TON to do but there is enough that I want to do it in small chunks.  I got a lot of old dog toys tossed out, started going through some of the excess that is in the front room and will be doing some serious cleaning in the room that used to be the office.

All in all there is a lot of progress going on in both life and spirituality that seems to get kicked up on the weekends.  I’m digging it.

Wallpaper found on Wallisty

Wallpaper found on Wallisty

Even in our darkest hours we are never truly alone.  If you open your heart, you will feel the support surrounding you.  I have a vision, it’s a simple one but mine nevertheless.  I want to share my experiences, I want to learn more and help those who have walked the path in the dark, thinking they were alone for far too long and offer them support and more.

This is my vision: In my this work I will combine my Priestesshood with the counseling of those who have depression or similar disorders. For years we fight alone and without the support that can be garnered by community and our Priesthood. As a result of this solitude, we often encounter fear, self-loathing and the impression we are weak. None of this is the case. I plan to bring counseling and tools to the Sacred Mists community to help my brothers and sisters, which suffer from the multitude of depressive disorders. This will be done through community, counseling and helping to provide quality information and tools to work within spirit and with both western and eastern medicinal traditions for healing. I will accomplish this through research, training and outreach.

I am in the infant phases of this at the present.  I am doing the exploration right now to determine the need and desire for this very thing.  In this exploration I see potential services to be offered:

  • Community Support via closed forum for privacy
  • IM support/counseling
  • Phone support/counseling
  • Spell work support with counseling
  • Reiki, Spell work, Meditation support with counseling

Some of these services will be free of charge, others will carry a moderate fee for time and materials (where applicable).  This of course will be offered on a sliding scale for folks who need the support but just cannot afford it.  I am also considering doing this with a pay it forward aspect to it so that if you cannot afford it, with an agreement to make a love donation in the future for someone who needs it but cannot afford it, I will do the work free of charge.  I’m still working out the logistics in my head and exploring the coursework that I will be taking to make this a realization.  There will be a lot of research on my end as well as some psychology coursework.

In the end I think this can be great.  Does this sound interesting to you?  Please comment here on the blog with your thoughts and any questions.  Do not reply on facebook please! 🙂

This is  my path, my manifestation, by my will so mote it be.

This is my path, my manifestation, by my will so mote it be.

Yesterday, I shared a very intimate part of my life…my ongoing battle with depression.  The thing about depression is that we always think we are alone and we are the only ones that are suffering when this is actually far from the truth.

I look back on the years of self-seclusion and realize that I could have been getting better support all along if I had simply opened up.  That is not as easy as it sounds of course.  We are always our worst critics and sometimes even enemies when it comes to things like this especially.

As a result of this I am going to spend time to focus on this within my own spiritual community and try to meet the needs of said community to help us all grow together.  This of course will not be something that I can accomplish overnight as it will require a great deal of time, study and hard work, which I am not afraid of.

This just FEELS right to me and it circles back with what I wanted to do in high school in some ways.  Yes this is the way.

Samhain Altar at the completion of the ritual.

Samhain Altar at the completion of the ritual.

Last Thursday, Sacred Mists had our Sabbat Ritual for Samhain.  We do this on an alternate day for availability and attendance.  With Halloween being so busy and the weekend of being filled with activities, we choose an alternate day so that our students can be present with the Circle and enjoy our Sabbat.

This year, we did something a little different.  Different in that I wrote and led the Sabbat instead of our traditional ritual written and led by our founder Lady Lorien.  The ritual I wrote was the completion of a cycle I began in February of this year.  At Pantheacon this year, I was gifted with the information to present this particular ritual and meditation for this year and as such it was an amazing process filled with spirit and Deity.  When you channel a ritual during the writing process, you are never for sure, until the end that the ritual is going to meet the needs of the group you will be offering it to.  I feel this ritual met and exceeded the needs of my circle and after both rituals I felt simply wonderful.

 

Smoke from the Ancestral messages + offering

Smoke from the Ancestral messages + offering

A little about this ritual I asked everyone to prepare both a message to their ancestors for Hades and something you wish to remove from your life, be it a habit, a health issue or something else to be replaced with something helpful that Persephone will take to the underworld to plant in her rose garden. From this fertilizer helpful + positive things will come to each of us.   This was to be a ritual of transformation as well as ancestral.

Flare up from Ancestral messages + offerings

Flare up from Ancestral messages + offerings

Both instances of the ritual were incredibly powerful for me and I felt major shifting within beginning.  During the second ritual it was dusk into full dark here in California and something clicked in that ritual that just was immense for me personally.

One of the things that I did for this ritual was to have the ancestral messages and the release + welcome written on special versions of my Color Magick Sizzling Spell Paper that is sold at the Sacred Mists Shoppe.  If you have never worked with my paper before, I must share with you that it’s positively amazing to work with for spell and ritual work.

As I worked through each aspect of this ritual and performed on behalf of my coven & circle I felt a shift deep within my spirit that I am still working to understand fully.  The veil, has seemingly, been lifted from my eyes and the darkness and fog that has followed me for more than a year now seems to be dissipating.  I am seeing more “light” than I have in sometime.

The last thing I wish to share from the ritual is a super short (6 second) video of the release + welcome offerings as they burnt.  It was a beautiful and fiery display!

Arianrhod's Sky by Selina Fenech  http://selinafenech.com/product/original-artwork-arianrhods-sky/

Arianrhod’s Sky by Selina Fenech
http://selinafenech.com/product/original-artwork-arianrhods-sky/

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

Today brings us to the “end” of the elemental workings as we focus on that of spirit.  What is spirit?  Spirit is the light and life that brings everything together.  Where does it come from?  What can it teach us?  Spirit is everything and nothing.  The breath of the universe and the spark of divinity that is in everything around us.  It is the alchemy that binds us, moves us, transforms us.  This brings us unity and magick and to the core of divinity.

Absorbing Spirit:

Close your eyes and see yourself sitting silently and alone in the center of a room with nothing in it.  You see the walls and the floor are completely devoid of any adornments and trappings.  It’s simply you and the empty space of the room.  Slowly you begin to realize that you are not in an entirely empty room, there is light twinkling in and out of spaces.  You continue breathing gently and purposefully and notice that the twinkling of light is increasing as you breath until you are encircled by twinkling lights.  Know you are safe in this circle of light it cannot harm you.  With this knowledge you realize you are being surrounded by the element of spirit, the light of that and the universe protect you.

Continue breathing deeply and with each breath, you breathe in the element of spirit.  The light of spirit begins to fill your entire body filling you with an amazing warmth and weightlessness, count how many breaths it takes until you are completely filled with the element of spirit.  What does it feel like to be filled with spirit? Where does the spirit not move cleanly through you Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or move too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the element to help repair the damage and the element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once spirit is flowing and pulsing fully within you, you are ready to project it back out of your being, thankful for the blessing of balance it has given you.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of spirit. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced within this element.

Today marks the final day in the elemental work we’ve been doing and I must say that I feel much more balanced than I did when I started this little project out.  Today I feel light hearted, free and filled with joy.  There is a lot to do (like any day) but even the crankiest thing will not affect me.  This process will be one that I do monthly going forward and perhaps more than one element a day not sure but it will be ongoing.  I definitely feel different.

Have you been following along?  Have you been joining me in these exercises?  How do you feel?

Earth Elemental by D_emo

Earth Elemental by D_emo

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

I’ve gotten “caught” up in my posts so that none are missing, despite the one being a day late for yesterday’s Water post.  Today I am working with Earth.  Earth, happens to be my weakest element.  There is something very smothering about it in many ways and so controlling.  I have never been able to “completely let go” and soar because Earth seems to just hold on.

What is the element Earth?  Aside from being our bodies, our home and filled with wonder?  Earth grounds us, protects us and shelters us.  Earth is a great provider.  Our food is of the earth, we are enriched by it’s beauty, we are in awe of the destructive forces it can unleash upon us.

Absorbing Earth:

Close your eyes. See yourself sitting calmly in nature (someplace where you can touch the ground such as a forest, cave or meadow). Nothing exists but you Earth around you. Feel the texture and weight of the Earth around you. See how the Earth moves with each breath you take. Breathe deeply, Earth does not become agitated , but appears to be swirling gently around you. It is creating a circle around you. Know that you are safe in this circle of earth. The earth cannot harm you, but is protecting you. Nothing exists but you and the circle of earth which has surrounded you.

Continue breathing deeply, with each breath you are being filled with the Element, you are breathing in the element itself. Slowly the Element begins filling your being. Count each breath in, Keep this count, see this as a bead, how many breaths does it take for Element to fill your being? Remember this number. The characteristics of Element have filled your being. What does it feel like to be filled with earth? Where does the earth not move cleanly through you Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or move too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the Element to help repair the damage and the Element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once your Element is flowing evenly and steadily, you are ready to project that element back out of your being.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of Earth. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced with this Element.

This exercise is always difficult for me.  I always feel as if I am being suffocated.  As a result of that it takes me considerably longer to “fill” myself as I have to take it slowly in order to keep the panic of suffocation at bay.  One of the changes I did with this exercise is instead of the “movement” I decided to fill myself and look for cracks or fissures in the earth that has filled me.  I looked and began focusing on the energy centers of my body that exhibited a less than full amount of earth and began working to fill that by adding soil to the whole and shifting it around until the fissures closed.

I think with time this exercise will become easier as the more I work with the earth element the more comfortable I will become with it.  Maybe a few more times and I won’t have a near panic attack. *laugh*

Water Elemental by Javi Ure

Water Elemental by Javi Ure

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  To me it’s always a wonderful thing but when life gets in the way and you miss a day?  Ugh!  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

I missed writing yesterday, I did the work but never got a chance to get to the laptop to write about it.  The day was quite good in the way it all worked out and sometimes computer free days are nice. 🙂  As I continue working through the elements, yesterday was Water.

Water is a great balancer for me.  When I am feeling “too hot” or in general off kilter Water always balances me right out.  So what does water control?  Well there are a lot of thoughts here rolling around.  The body is comprised of a majority water and “liquid” cells.  Water lubricates.  Water is the giver of life, without it we could not survive.  Water is emotion, fluid and joyous.  As with the previous two exercises I used my absorption method from my First Degree training at Sacred Mists.

Absorbing Water:
Close your eyes. See yourself sitting calmly near a body of water. Nothing exists but you and the water, enter the water. Feel the weight of the water around you. See how the water moves with each breath you take. Breathe deeply, water does not become agitated , but appears to be swirling gently around you. It is creating a circle of water around you. Know that you are safe in this circle of water. The water cannot harm you, but is protecting you. Nothing exists but you and the circle of water which has surrounded you.

Continue breathing deeply, with each breath you are being filled with the Element, you are breathing in the element itself. Slowly the Element begins filling your being. Count each breath in, Keep this count, see this as a bead, how many breaths does it take for Element to fill your being? Remember this number. The characteristics of Element have filled your being. What does it feel like to be filled with water? Where does the water not move cleanly through you Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or swirl too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the Element to help repair the damage and the Element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once your Element is flowing evenly and steadily, you are ready to project that element back out of your being.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of Water. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced with this Element.

From the base exercise (above) I made even more modifications today.  I was out and about doing my weekend walk with my husband and pups along the waterfront & ferry terminal.  Due to the hustle and bustle about me I made this a little shorter of an exercise.  I took a few moments of “me” stretch time and sat along the guard rails while they walked on ahead.  I closed my eyes and breathed in the water of the Bay.  The water here is a little different than I am used to so the inner buoyancy that I received was significantly more.  My emotions bobbed up and down with each breath and soon I was completely filled up to the brim.  The emotions floated in this water and slowly became saturated.  They were “weighed” down so that they were more palpable and easier to work with.  As I ended this exercise I breathed out the water in the same breaths as in.  When it was all left I felt cleansed, balanced and blissful in heart.

Would I do it this way again? Yes I think so.  It might have been a little more effective than previously done in fresh water baths and pools.  I felt peaceful and delighted and remained that way for the rest of the day.

Air Elemental - art by Iriloth This image to me is both evocative and fully representative of what this exercise is like for me.

Air Elemental – art by Iriloth
This image to me is both evocative and fully representative of what this exercise is like for me.

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

For the next several days we are going to be talking about the elements.  I’ve decided to start with air, as I would in calling a circle.

During my studies with Sacred Mists, in the first degree, we did a series of exercises called “Elemental Absorption”.  The goal of these exercises was that through meditation we completely absorb what it is to be “one with an element”.  This does several things, it helps us, as witches, become more balanced within the elements themselves and to find areas of imbalance or “weakness” and work within that particular element to find balance.

Today I focus on Air, I know that this is an element that I am strong in. The wind is my breath, the breeze my heartbeat.  To get the ball rolling I will first share the modified Absorption exercise.  Modified?  Yes, I took the original exercises and modified them slightly to work a little better for me.  This is that modified version.

Absorbing Air:
Close your eyes. See yourself sitting calmly. Nothing exists but you. Feel the weight of the air around you. See how the air moves with each breath you take. Breathe deeply, the air does not become diluted, but appears to be swirling gently around you. It is creating a circle of air around you. Know that you are safe in this circle of air. The Air cannot harm you, but is protecting you. Nothing exists but you and the circle of swirling air which has surrounded you.

Continue breathing deeply, with each breath you are being filled with the Element, you are breathing in the element itself. Slowly the Element begins filling your being. Count each breath in, Keep this count, see this as a bead, how many breaths does it take for Element to fill your being? Remember this number. The characteristics of Element have filled your being. Where does the Element not swirl evenly? Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or swirl too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the Element to help repair the damage and the Element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once your Element is swirling evenly and steadily, you are ready to project that element back out of your being.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of Air. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced with this Element. Count again the number of beads, you must exhale exactly the same number of times you inhaled.

Conscious Spirit Oracle Card and Chrysalis Tarot Card for 10/24/2014

Conscious Spirit Oracle Card and Chrysalis Tarot Card for 10/24/2014

The modifications I made to this exercise help me find the exact spots within my body that are, essentially, deficient in the element of air.  This exercise does not take very long generally and it’s one that I try to remember to do at least once a month.  Granted, lately it has been longer in between doing them and I can certainly tell that is the case.  When I did this today I found a great many places that the air did not move freely through my body.  Most prominently was within my “root chakra” area that area that controls safety and security as well as my “sacral chakra” which when imbalanced can lead to feelings of insecurity and helplessness.  Yes, this makes sense to me.  So I spent a few minutes focusing on the air in those areas and freed up some of the movement.  I should do this exercise at least once a week for the time being.

In addition to this exercise I did pull my Conscious Spirit Oracle Card and a card from the Chrysalis Tarot.  Today’s reading is representative entirely of where I am in my life and day and makes sense.  My Oracle Card is “Balance” with affirmation “I understand and embrace the opposing forces in life that bring about balance”  This absolutely makes sense to me as I work to regain balance in my life from being knocked about and over consistently.  My Tarot card is the Ten of Scrolls which depicts a regal tiger surrounded by the scrolls. This is about restriction and finding oneself surrounded by the trials of life.  The strength and will of the tiger will aid in getting through these issues.