Random ramblings and thanks…

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras.  It was glorious.

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras. It was glorious.

We are coming upon the time of the second harvest, Mabon.  Before going into my plans and talking a little more about Mabon, yes I know it’s not actually an old name, that it was made up to sound old and blah blah blah.  I will continue to use it, because it resonates and speaks to my original roots in Wicca and new age spirituality almost 20 years ago.

As I was saying, it’s time for the second harvest.  This is the Autumnal Equinox, opposite the Vernal Equinox for spring.  The two days where the day is evenly split between light and dark.  For me, I take this time welcome the harvest that I am reaping in this year’s magickal workings.  There, of course, has been a lot going on in my year.  I have seen huge changes and shifts in my own life that speak to a more peaceful and abundant future.  I am working at healing myself on every level so that I can ultimately find true happiness WITHIN as well as out.  It’s a lot of work.

As my shifting perspective moves from summer into fall, I come to several conclusions about the year thus far.  It has been hell on wheels.  It has been transformative.  It has been amazing.  It has been sad.  It has been angry.  My goals are simple, I want to be healthier, I wanted my friends to stick by me as I went through some personally trying and dark stuff.  I needed people to understand that I am not going to always be right there and ready or willing to do things or even talk all the time.  I have to be able to do this self-healing work.  I’m sorry that my healing affected my friends.  That was never my intention.  I am a different person than I was even two months ago.

Every morning, I wake up and breathe deeply, thankful that I have made it to another day.  Each morning, I give my family all the love I have and then I give the same amount to friends that cross my path in that day.  It will not always be the same people but everyday I am sending a little more love into the world.  You see, the more I love myself, the more I have to share with the world.  My mind is expanding, it’s perceiving things differently and I am more balanced than I have been in years.  Not there yet, but it’s happening.

This Mabon, I am going to make my red wine Mabon Pot Roast, I am going to share that with friends and family.  What is left, I might just package up to give to some homeless folks.  I am thankful to still be here.  I am thankful to have friends who truly care about me.  I am thankful to the family that loves me.  I am thankful to my Coven.  I am thankful to my Circle.  I am thankful to my Tribe.

What are you thankful for this Mabon?

Posted on 21 September '16 by , under Circle, Community, Dark Night, Depression + Spiritual Counseling, Growth, Holidays, Kitchen Witchery, ritual, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Musings on the weekend + the new moon

at Hann's Park under a Willow tree near the stream

at Hann’s Park under a Willow tree near the stream

So this weekend was a pretty busy one…then again they all seem to be busy. I have started to really work with gemstones and some very personal workings that I started earlier this year. I am feeling a real difference.

This weekend I made a few decisions that I can share with you:

  • I will blog three times a week
    • Monday’s will be weekend musings
    • Wednesday will be Gemstones + Magick
    • Friday will be freeform whatever comes to mind.
  • Starting with the new moon tonight I am digging in deeper to some much needed shadow workings.
  • I wrote the ritual for tonight and it’s great. LOL
  • Daily House of Night Oracle draws are back on.

Aside from all of these decisions I am starting to feel the fog of an ongoing Dark Night of the Soul begin to lift up.  There is still work to be done but the fog is not as thick as it once was and for that I am grateful.  I am feeling some real joy in life and the world around me as the depression that has hung on in this dark night starts to alleviate some of its stranglehold.

I started preparing for guests arriving at the end of this month.  There is not a TON to do but there is enough that I want to do it in small chunks.  I got a lot of old dog toys tossed out, started going through some of the excess that is in the front room and will be doing some serious cleaning in the room that used to be the office.

All in all there is a lot of progress going on in both life and spirituality that seems to get kicked up on the weekends.  I’m digging it.

Posted on 12 October '15 by , under Dark Night, Growth, Life, meditation, New Moon, ritual, shadow quest, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Samhain – A look at last week’s ritual

Samhain Altar at the completion of the ritual.

Samhain Altar at the completion of the ritual.

Last Thursday, Sacred Mists had our Sabbat Ritual for Samhain.  We do this on an alternate day for availability and attendance.  With Halloween being so busy and the weekend of being filled with activities, we choose an alternate day so that our students can be present with the Circle and enjoy our Sabbat.

This year, we did something a little different.  Different in that I wrote and led the Sabbat instead of our traditional ritual written and led by our founder Lady Lorien.  The ritual I wrote was the completion of a cycle I began in February of this year.  At Pantheacon this year, I was gifted with the information to present this particular ritual and meditation for this year and as such it was an amazing process filled with spirit and Deity.  When you channel a ritual during the writing process, you are never for sure, until the end that the ritual is going to meet the needs of the group you will be offering it to.  I feel this ritual met and exceeded the needs of my circle and after both rituals I felt simply wonderful.


Smoke from the Ancestral messages + offering

Smoke from the Ancestral messages + offering

A little about this ritual I asked everyone to prepare both a message to their ancestors for Hades and something you wish to remove from your life, be it a habit, a health issue or something else to be replaced with something helpful that Persephone will take to the underworld to plant in her rose garden. From this fertilizer helpful + positive things will come to each of us.   This was to be a ritual of transformation as well as ancestral.

Flare up from Ancestral messages + offerings

Flare up from Ancestral messages + offerings

Both instances of the ritual were incredibly powerful for me and I felt major shifting within beginning.  During the second ritual it was dusk into full dark here in California and something clicked in that ritual that just was immense for me personally.

One of the things that I did for this ritual was to have the ancestral messages and the release + welcome written on special versions of my Color Magick Sizzling Spell Paper that is sold at the Sacred Mists Shoppe.  If you have never worked with my paper before, I must share with you that it’s positively amazing to work with for spell and ritual work.

As I worked through each aspect of this ritual and performed on behalf of my coven & circle I felt a shift deep within my spirit that I am still working to understand fully.  The veil, has seemingly, been lifted from my eyes and the darkness and fog that has followed me for more than a year now seems to be dissipating.  I am seeing more “light” than I have in sometime.

The last thing I wish to share from the ritual is a super short (6 second) video of the release + welcome offerings as they burnt.  It was a beautiful and fiery display!

Posted on 3 November '14 by , under Holidays, ritual, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

It’s Elemental – Spirit

Arianrhod's Sky by Selina Fenech  http://selinafenech.com/product/original-artwork-arianrhods-sky/

Arianrhod’s Sky by Selina Fenech

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

Today brings us to the “end” of the elemental workings as we focus on that of spirit.  What is spirit?  Spirit is the light and life that brings everything together.  Where does it come from?  What can it teach us?  Spirit is everything and nothing.  The breath of the universe and the spark of divinity that is in everything around us.  It is the alchemy that binds us, moves us, transforms us.  This brings us unity and magick and to the core of divinity.

Absorbing Spirit:

Close your eyes and see yourself sitting silently and alone in the center of a room with nothing in it.  You see the walls and the floor are completely devoid of any adornments and trappings.  It’s simply you and the empty space of the room.  Slowly you begin to realize that you are not in an entirely empty room, there is light twinkling in and out of spaces.  You continue breathing gently and purposefully and notice that the twinkling of light is increasing as you breath until you are encircled by twinkling lights.  Know you are safe in this circle of light it cannot harm you.  With this knowledge you realize you are being surrounded by the element of spirit, the light of that and the universe protect you.

Continue breathing deeply and with each breath, you breathe in the element of spirit.  The light of spirit begins to fill your entire body filling you with an amazing warmth and weightlessness, count how many breaths it takes until you are completely filled with the element of spirit.  What does it feel like to be filled with spirit? Where does the spirit not move cleanly through you Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or move too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the element to help repair the damage and the element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once spirit is flowing and pulsing fully within you, you are ready to project it back out of your being, thankful for the blessing of balance it has given you.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of spirit. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced within this element.

Today marks the final day in the elemental work we’ve been doing and I must say that I feel much more balanced than I did when I started this little project out.  Today I feel light hearted, free and filled with joy.  There is a lot to do (like any day) but even the crankiest thing will not affect me.  This process will be one that I do monthly going forward and perhaps more than one element a day not sure but it will be ongoing.  I definitely feel different.

Have you been following along?  Have you been joining me in these exercises?  How do you feel?

Posted on 28 October '14 by , under Elements, Life, meditation, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

It’s Elemental – Earth

Earth Elemental by D_emo

Earth Elemental by D_emo

There is something to be said for having an accountability partner in writing.  It is keeping me “honest” with writing everyday and working out subjects together can be quite awesome. 🙂  Do you want to see her writings too?  Be sure to visit her on her Witches Diary.  If you like, we’d love to have you join us! Want a witches diary as well?  Just contact me and I will set it up for you!

I’ve gotten “caught” up in my posts so that none are missing, despite the one being a day late for yesterday’s Water post.  Today I am working with Earth.  Earth, happens to be my weakest element.  There is something very smothering about it in many ways and so controlling.  I have never been able to “completely let go” and soar because Earth seems to just hold on.

What is the element Earth?  Aside from being our bodies, our home and filled with wonder?  Earth grounds us, protects us and shelters us.  Earth is a great provider.  Our food is of the earth, we are enriched by it’s beauty, we are in awe of the destructive forces it can unleash upon us.

Absorbing Earth:

Close your eyes. See yourself sitting calmly in nature (someplace where you can touch the ground such as a forest, cave or meadow). Nothing exists but you Earth around you. Feel the texture and weight of the Earth around you. See how the Earth moves with each breath you take. Breathe deeply, Earth does not become agitated , but appears to be swirling gently around you. It is creating a circle around you. Know that you are safe in this circle of earth. The earth cannot harm you, but is protecting you. Nothing exists but you and the circle of earth which has surrounded you.

Continue breathing deeply, with each breath you are being filled with the Element, you are breathing in the element itself. Slowly the Element begins filling your being. Count each breath in, Keep this count, see this as a bead, how many breaths does it take for Element to fill your being? Remember this number. The characteristics of Element have filled your being. What does it feel like to be filled with earth? Where does the earth not move cleanly through you Where does it become broken, where does it not exist or move too quickly? See these areas and what they correspond to. Mentally and emotionally allow the Element to help repair the damage and the Element will exist evenly and throughout.

Once your Element is flowing evenly and steadily, you are ready to project that element back out of your being.

Continue breathing evenly. With each breath you project a bead of Earth. You will project the same number of beads of the element that you breathed in. With each exhalation of the element you remain balanced with this Element.

This exercise is always difficult for me.  I always feel as if I am being suffocated.  As a result of that it takes me considerably longer to “fill” myself as I have to take it slowly in order to keep the panic of suffocation at bay.  One of the changes I did with this exercise is instead of the “movement” I decided to fill myself and look for cracks or fissures in the earth that has filled me.  I looked and began focusing on the energy centers of my body that exhibited a less than full amount of earth and began working to fill that by adding soil to the whole and shifting it around until the fissures closed.

I think with time this exercise will become easier as the more I work with the earth element the more comfortable I will become with it.  Maybe a few more times and I won’t have a near panic attack. *laugh*

Posted on 27 October '14 by , under Elements, meditation, Sacred Mists, Spirituality. No Comments.

A return to balance…

DSCN0831Yesterday I celebrated Mabon with my Coven, The Willow Grove of the Sacred Mists.  It is always a true joy for me to celebrate with the amazing women who have joined this little group.  We are at 5 members now and 3 came yesterday.  It was a lovely little ritual and I am really enjoying putting things together for everyone.  Our Mabon ritual was beautiful and I truly feel a bond with these beautiful women.  As time marches on we will, no doubt, gain new members and go through all that entails and I can’t wait to share the beautiful aspects of life with everyone.

After our ritual was concluded we adjourned to the inside of the house for our feast.  I made potato corn chowder, Pam brought fresh made zucchini bread, fresh berries brought by Janet and Robin.  We chatted and ate together and started doing some planning for activities and crafts together.

Our gatherings are all set up to Samhain with the ability to jiggle the dates slightly.  You can tell that it is now fall here, the air has taken on a slight chill with the same temperatures at night and the days are noticeably shorter than in the summer.  All in all it’s been a great year even with the difficulties that I have encountered.  Triumph over adversity!

On the 28th I am going to do my first ever 5K and I will write about that in a little while separately, everything is so exciting this time of year and I am beside myself with the joy of the season.  After circle yesterday, Jenn came up with Jersey.  We went over to the Mare Island Preserve and walked.  I stopped a little up from the Bowser Garden (half way)…well I stopped at the Garden then rested and continued up a little.  We had dinner at our favorite little family Mexican restaurant around the corner from the house.  I got a new fitbit tracker since the case on the Ultra cracked.  I have the Zip now which will do wireless updates to the dashboard.  only problem is I lost a couple days of data off the Ultra.  Bummer.  Yesterday I did almost 6700 steps. Not my highest but pretty darned good.

I am just all over the place today with my thoughts and am going to call it for right now before I just ramble on and on. 😉

Posted on 23 September '13 by , under Circle, Community, Growth, Holidays, Life, ritual, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Time in the Woods…

The setting sun at the campground in Big Sur.

The setting sun at the campground in Big Sur.

This weekend I “got away” from it all by visiting Big Sur with my good friend Leona.  As I mentioned before, I’ve not had any time to spend with her for going on 5 or 6 years now.  The reason for the long absence from spending time together had a lot to do with location.  She moved to California long before I did and work has been crazy since my move so we both kind of put our foots down and made time to get away.

It was a girls “camping” weekend.  We rented a lovely cabin at Big Sur Campground, which I highly recommend them.  The people are super amazingly nice and the location is stunning…even on a completely sold out weekend it was quiet and beautiful.

We checked in late on Friday, unpacked and started settling in as we set our altar.  This evening proved to be one of incredible magick and revelations for me.  This was the night that a God came calling and wanting to talk to me.  For anyone that

Our small altar in the cabin, half set by Leona and half by me.

Our small altar in the cabin, half set by Leona and half by me.

has known me for any stretch of time and knows of my spiritual path, you are aware that Gods never wish to speak to me or work with me so years and years ago I gave up trying.  For one to show up and want to work with me, well it took me off guard.  Because of my personality traits and many other reasons they stopped wanting to work with me a decade or so ago.  At first I was confused until I found someone who actually would talk to me long enough to tell me why.  I understood and stopped fighting it.  Well now they are back and wanting to work with me again.   At first I was taken aback but realized that I have become a little unbalanced and the balance in all things are coming to be due and need to be addressed.  All in all it was an amazing evening with unexpected channeling.

River in the campground we stayed at...a beautiful time to be in nature.

River in the campground we stayed at…a beautiful time to be in nature.

Saturday we got up late and we snacked on fruit leather before getting the day started with a trip to the river.  We walked up and down the river a little bit and in general communed with nature and the local fae.  After collecting some river water, we headed to the camp store to get more firewood and then hit the cabin for brunch.  I made homemade sausage gravy with biscuits.  It was extremely tasty and a recipe I will happily continue to use.  After food we got things out to make pouches.  We cut and began hand-sewing our pouches.  Mine was a smaller pouch for gemstones that go in my box of tarot cards and hers was a Crane Bag for her Druidry stuff. It was several hours of sacred crafting then time for our early Mabon rituals together.  She did a lovely ADF ritual and I followed with some spell work of thanks for Mabon and a seed that is to be planted now and harvested by Solstice.  Mine was different than originally planned thanks to the channeling of the  night before. 😉  Dinner was my great grandmother’s recipe for Chicken and Dumplings with lots more chatting and reading.  The fire was going in the wood burning stove and quite lovely for us.

webs in the trees

webs in the trees

We got up Sunday and puttered around, we were granted a late check-out so we did not have to rush, thankfully.  We slowly packed up then had some brunch of chili and biscuits that Leona made then continued cleaning up and packing.  Traffic out of Big Sur was a bit much but it only took two hours to get to San Carlos then 15 minutes over to Redwood City to meet Keith and Ariyana at Jenn’s, Jenn made us a yummy dinner and we sat around catching up and watching some of Bitchin’ Kitchen, which amused me.  Home late and up late today but I feel more connected, balance being addressed and my connection to both my spirit and to my friends restored.  Yes I feel pretty good.

Posted on 16 September '13 by , under Circle, Goddesses, Gods, Growth, ritual, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Planting a Grove

Through the trees, the sun shines on me.  The birds are singing and my connection to spirit strengthens.

Through the trees, the sun shines on me. The birds are singing and my connection to spirit strengthens.

Some many months ago I spoke of wanting to start a local circle.  I put that on hold as there were many…MANY things that were keeping my plans up in the air.  Those “things” have all disappeared to the wayside.

This morning I reset my altar that is in the living room.  I spend more time in this room than I do in my office so I thought I’d fix the altar to reflect that.  it looks pretty great.  Later I’ll clean off my working table 😉 and set aside a little space for a candle and incense holder and a clot for them to sit on.

With life starting to settle back into a normal routine again I am feeling, once again called to start a local circle.  This is something I have wanted to do for a very long time and well it’s high time I get it started.  I’ve been considering the how’s and why’s for so long that if I don’t get out of my head and into the world it will simply always be a dream.

At the end of my thoughts I’ve decided a hive or sister grove to Sacred Mists is the ideal way for me to proceed with it.  I’ve decided on a grove so that those who wish to enter can learn from one another and grow together in the bonds of friendship and light.  My maiden name translates to “of the Willow”, Willow has always been a favorite of mine and it just makes sense to have “Willow Grove of Sacred Mists” for my group.  Admittedly I do no t know a great many people in the area yet; however, I would like to get this started by Mabon at the latest.

Gatherers would ideally meet at my house in Vallejo as I have plenty of room (inside and out) for a gathering of up to a dozen or more people.  Tools are present and I would welcome any additions.  I am working on the logistics of “Grove Items and restocking” as well as a few other ‘bylaws’ that would be vital to having a local group.

I am looking forward to this next chapter with an amazing amount of peace and joy.

Posted on 1 July '13 by , under Circle, Growth, Life, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Life, Spirit and Magick

My beautiful smoky quartz point sitting atop a light box.  You can see the fairy inside if you look closely enough. :)

My beautiful smoky quartz point sitting atop a light box. You can see the fairy inside if you look closely enough. 🙂

I wanted to continue my train of thoughts from last November.  They felt incomplete and only a glance at what I do everyday and what it truly means to me.  To be able to live a meaningful life that is an embrace of my spirit is what this life is all about for me.

My struggles surround my inner critic that I am never good enough and that my abilities are never enough.  While I always strive for improvement of myself I, it does not mean that I am inadequate.  This last statement is always my hardest thing to get through.  It seems to me that I am always struggling in some way with feeling “not enough” and I really am trying to work through it.  I know the root cause of it and quite frankly it’s bullshit that I let something that happened decades ago still affect me.  Yes it’s also true that, the event which triggered my feelings of inadequacy has been added to through jobs and careers that were not a good fit for me.

Over the years I have been told I am not good enough at X,Y or Z and that I should find something else that I may be good at.  Well I am done with that thinking…really trying to be done with that thinking.  It sounds easier than it really is.

Keith & I at Muir Overlook in 2012

Keith & I at Muir Overlook in 2012

I’m really not sure the exact moment that my spirit decided to turn things around, but I’d wager something in me really clicked and started changing once I got out of FL.  I remember the moment that I looked in the mirror and recognized my divine spirit shining again as it emerged from the darkness.  Nothing overly spectacular really…I was driving down 29 on my way to Napa to get to the store.  I had the windows down in the car, radio turned up and listening to NIN.  I caught a glance of my face in the mirror as I used it to change lanes and was astonished at what I saw.  In it I saw a smile.  In it I saw me for the first time in years.

My spirit began shining enough that I could see it each time I looked into the mirror for any reason and has continued to shine through all the twists and turns of life.  Why now?  What changed?  I mean besides from the move ALL the way across the US. 😉  A lot has actually changed.

As you all may know this move has been truly transformational for me.  With every decision we make, every day that passes I feel so much more.  Not every decision has been “good” or “easy” but each infused with spirit and the magick of life.  Not in many years, have I truly felt the peace that resides within my heart right now.  My love, my joy continues to grow day after day.  In general everything I do brings some joy to my life.  My craft is filled with manifestation.  My creativity is bursting at the seams wanting to be used and it shall be used!  Every dish I cook filled with magick, love and joy.  I cook so much more right now than I have in a great many years and I haven’t enjoyed it the way I do now in a really long time.

Right now, things are a little tough for me emotionally, as you may have read in my last blog post.  Even with this tough decision, I know it was the right thing and will continue to work on moving past it.  Each day I manifest something wonderful in my life.

Walking in Hann's park, early in the morning, I get to see and hear the world as it awakes and nature begins her day filled with the sounds of birds singing and even owls getting ready to turn in for the day.  Magick & Joy everywhere!

Walking in Hann’s park, early in the morning, I get to see and hear the world as it awakes and nature begins her day filled with the sounds of birds singing and even owls getting ready to turn in for the day. Magick & Joy everywhere!

How do you live with so much creativity and magick at your fingertips wanting to be used?  Carefully, with intention, with joy and love. Sounds easy but it’s not, have to work for the highest good of everyone involved in any situation and sometimes that means letting go.

Everyday I work to let a little something go.  It could be a thought, a feeling, a piece of hurt.  One of the biggest things that is the hardest for me to “let go” is my feelings of being inadequate and not good enough for whatever reason it may be.  At the end of the day I am a pretty awesome person with an awesome heart and a huge amount of love for the people in my life.  I will make mistakes, I will forge on and make new mistakes.  I may repeat some patterns, but eventually I will break those harmful patterns.

My quest for living a spirit filled life has led me to live in the most beautiful place I could imagine with friends nearby and opportunities to make new friends.  I try to learn from the examples those who have gone before me set, to learn from my own mistakes and to learn from the students I interact with each day.  A little piece of me fits back into place and the jig saw puzzle that was my heart and my magick is slowly fitting together into a beautiful picture.  I guess in some ways the last year or so of my life has been a very long Dark Night and I am emerging into the light and finding great promise, beauty and opportunity at every turn.

Me on 2-27-2013 as I was working in my living room before I left for Napa for work stuff.

Me on 2-27-2013 as I was working in my living room before I left for Napa for work stuff.

It truly is helpful that I get to do things I love to do for work.  It helps that I try to find a silver lining in every situation now.  It helps that I have a few very close friends (to my heart not necessarily in distance) that are always there when I fall down and help me back up.  Spring is upon us and I feel great growth and manifestation coming.  In a month and a half I turn the wheel of my life and hit a major milestone.  I am looking forward to this amazing growth.  I guess I am just babbling a bit today and I will call this entry done for now and leave you with a smile, a blessing from the heart and a wish of joy.  May your day be filled with love, laughter, joy and magick.  May you find peace and prosperity, May your life be full. 🙂


Posted on 28 February '13 by , under Growth, Life, Spirituality. No Comments.

A conspiracy theory to live by

A friend of mine posted a picture on facebook with a Ralph Waldo Emerson quote on it.  The quote is simple and profound at the same time.

Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen

The universe and I have long been friends in conspiracy.  The road is not always easy but the decision firmly made will manifest.  The universe WANTS you to be happy and enjoy your life.  I am a firm believer in this.

One of my biggest desires was turned into a decision.  For too long we have been unhappy and trying new things to be happy and always they are short term.

We always find things that make us happy.  We get up early and go bike riding, getting fit, doing things with family and the pup.  When it comes right down to it the happiness is just really not there.  When you are not happy what is it that you do to fix it?  You figure out what is missing or what is making you unhappy and you make a decision to change it.  After making a multitude of changes we discovered that one of the biggest reasons we are unhappy is our general environment.

By this I mean several things and if they are all out of whack, it simply bleeds over into everything else.  What do you do when everything surrounding you adds to an unhappy life?  The general public has become quite crotchety, mean, sour and entitled (sometimes all at once – YIKES).  These things enter the sanctuary of home making it less and less a sanctuary.  You look for things to fix that and they are only short term.

At some point you determine that you simply must get out of the toxic environment (people & weather) that plagues your joy in life.  When you make that decision you set into motion an unstoppable train that will take you down a treacherous track from which you cannot be derailed only continue to rocket down.  After many twists, turns, and seemingly impossible upside down experiences you emerge through a darkened tunnel.  On the other side of this tunnel is a LIGHT.  It is that which you decided to move towards.  It’s within reach now.

The road has been hazardous and filled with much pain.   These things are put in the path to ensure that this is truly the decision for you.  No decision comes without pain.  No change comes without sacrifice.  I offer to this decision my blood, sweat and tears, the tears flow more freely now than they have in a very long time.  The sweat comes more frequently as well.  The blood…yes that has flowed as well.

Standing firmly in this decision we begin to embark on a change that will take me away from Florida into California.  I have dreamed this for years (since my first visit to Napa in 2000 with my former company), I have desired this.  Not only is this the thing I desire but it is the right thing for US.  Everything falls into place neatly, with challenges overcome and a solid plan.

You can see the signs of packing and the joy that I feel from this picture taken on 7-10.  The move has a conditional offer set on it pending a background check, which as of last night has come back with a WOO HOO!

We have secured a rental house (with a yard for Ariyana) in Vallejo (it looks like one of the great neighborhoods) and Keith is off to visit and drive it and sign the lease for one year!  We have rented an RV with which we will make the great cross-country trek in with all the pets (4 cats + 1 dog).  Pods will be handling the moving of STUFF and a transport for the car.

Here I come California!  At long last we will be reunited on a permanent basis.  My friends in Cali, it will be so wonderful to see you all again I have missed you so much!

Posted on 17 July '12 by , under Life, meditation, ritual, Spirituality, Training. 2 Comments.