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healing

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras.  It was glorious.

On a cool afternoon recently, I laid in the grass and grounded then centered and balanced my chakras. It was glorious.

We are coming upon the time of the second harvest, Mabon.  Before going into my plans and talking a little more about Mabon, yes I know it’s not actually an old name, that it was made up to sound old and blah blah blah.  I will continue to use it, because it resonates and speaks to my original roots in Wicca and new age spirituality almost 20 years ago.

As I was saying, it’s time for the second harvest.  This is the Autumnal Equinox, opposite the Vernal Equinox for spring.  The two days where the day is evenly split between light and dark.  For me, I take this time welcome the harvest that I am reaping in this year’s magickal workings.  There, of course, has been a lot going on in my year.  I have seen huge changes and shifts in my own life that speak to a more peaceful and abundant future.  I am working at healing myself on every level so that I can ultimately find true happiness WITHIN as well as out.  It’s a lot of work.

As my shifting perspective moves from summer into fall, I come to several conclusions about the year thus far.  It has been hell on wheels.  It has been transformative.  It has been amazing.  It has been sad.  It has been angry.  My goals are simple, I want to be healthier, I wanted my friends to stick by me as I went through some personally trying and dark stuff.  I needed people to understand that I am not going to always be right there and ready or willing to do things or even talk all the time.  I have to be able to do this self-healing work.  I’m sorry that my healing affected my friends.  That was never my intention.  I am a different person than I was even two months ago.

Every morning, I wake up and breathe deeply, thankful that I have made it to another day.  Each morning, I give my family all the love I have and then I give the same amount to friends that cross my path in that day.  It will not always be the same people but everyday I am sending a little more love into the world.  You see, the more I love myself, the more I have to share with the world.  My mind is expanding, it’s perceiving things differently and I am more balanced than I have been in years.  Not there yet, but it’s happening.

This Mabon, I am going to make my red wine Mabon Pot Roast, I am going to share that with friends and family.  What is left, I might just package up to give to some homeless folks.  I am thankful to still be here.  I am thankful to have friends who truly care about me.  I am thankful to the family that loves me.  I am thankful to my Coven.  I am thankful to my Circle.  I am thankful to my Tribe.

What are you thankful for this Mabon?

Continuing on my quest for accepting myself and going against the grain of traditional beauty standards, I say to you gentle reader, be bold and fierce.  Be yourself without apologies.  Granted, that is much easier to say than follow through on sometimes but I shall continue to buck the conventional.  Some of my most recent experiences are quite contrasting in actions and reactions.

Since this whole movement towards health started for me, I have been berating myself for not doing x or y.  I have been religiously using my fitbit to the point that I feel badly if I don’t make my goals for a given day.  Even when I am sick I push myself to complete my self-inflicted goals.  Sometimes they are more like shackles than goals.  I have lost a lot of weight, and my clothes fit me so much better than they have in a long time.  While this may be true, I still have a long road ahead of me with my weight.  I don’t believe I will ever be thin but I’d like to have one less chin.

Through affirmations I overcome the years of negative self-talk and abuse.

Through affirmations I overcome the years of negative self-talk and abuse.

One of the things I have noticed, well one of the many really, is that no matter what I am wearing, feeling or participating in, I am always there.  On a good day, I might dress a little more nicely and put on some makeup.  On a bad day, well I’m in my comfies with my hair pulled up and no makeup.  I don’t wear makeup often but when I do, it adds a little something to my step.  That something is confidence, a little more “me” that I am regaining from long ago in a galaxy far away.

The thing is, that this is not easy and it’s a labor of peeling back layers and years of negative self-talk and abuse from others out in the world.  Guess what though?  No matter what is said by you or to you, at the end of the day you are the only person that will always be there.  You will always find a way to make it through and yes there may be support systems for you to help you.  It’s up to you to make the changes for yourself.

So how do you change what is ingrained into your very spirit?  You start with affirmations.  Affirm that YOU ARE good, beautiful, smart, successful.  Whatever it is you want to be, tell yourself you are that very thing.  Tell yourself everyday.  Eventually the negative and harmful thoughts about yourself?  They go away.  Does wearing makeup make you feel beautiful?  Wear it.  Nails?  Paint them!  Make sure you look in a mirror for your affirmations.  Believe them and they will be.

I’m sure there will be more about this later but this is enough of a start for now. 😉

 

Several of the Amethysts that are always on my personal altar, currently being "charged" on my altar tile.

Several of the Amethysts that are always on my personal altar, currently being “charged” on my altar tile.

Ah, amethyst how I love thee like so many have for thousands of years.  Long viewed as a stone of royalty it has been set into crowns, scepters and even rings for bishops.  It is said to even have been the ninth stone in the breastplate of the High Priest of Israel and one of the ten stones upon which the names of the tribes of Israel were engraved.

Amethyst’s name is derived from the Greek word meaning “not drunken” and an ancient Greek myth, which explains it.  “The God, Bacchus, angry because of an insult, decreed that the first person he met would be eaten by his tigers.  The unfortunate person happened to be Amethyst on her way to worship at the shrine of Diana.  When the tigers sprang, Diana transformed the girl into a clear, transparent crystal.  In remorse, Bacchus poured the juice of his grapes over the stone as an offering, thus giving the gem it’s beautiful color. ”  The Greeks believed that Amethyst would calm anger, relieve frustrated passion and prevent intoxication.

Used in metaphysical practice, Amethyst is often called for healing, meditation and psychic abilities.  Amethyst’s ability to activate the higher mind is key in gaining clarity of mind and thought.  Through this clarity you can comprehend more clearly the dynamics of your life experiences and overcome (thus healing) the traumas of life and spirit.  Amethyst further can assist in emotion based decisions through the clarity previously mentioned.

With the clarity and peace that Amethyst can bring a practitioner, it is no wonder that it is often used for Healing and in Healing Practices.

A couple of affirmations for Amethyst:

  • “I am purified and uplifted through my connection to the divine”
  • “With clarity and purified spirit, I release and offer healing to myself and those I care for

Some of my favorite Amethyst pieces I have gotten from Sacred Mists Shoppe in Napa.

Amethyst Pyramid, Amethyst Wand, Amethyst Crystal Ball, Amethyst Druzy Cluster