Like yesterday I pulled a Shadowscapes Tarot card for daily insight. I am finding comfort in this routine and am loving the messages and how they relate to my day.
Today I pulled the Four of Pentacles. This is a truly beautiful card where a Dragon coils around it’s treasure and seems to want to keep it to himself.
An embodiment of the possessive spirit who must always be in control can be seen within this card. As he is coiled tightly around his hoard, he protects it and controls it from the others near him who in his mind threaten his hold upon it. As a result of this, the spirit lives in a gilded cage of his own making.
It’s very interesting to me that I pull this card today. I’ve been struggling, personally, with my parents and their smoking. This is especially hard for me as my dad has lung cancer. I care very deeply for my parents and would like them to be around for a long time to come; however, it is not my decision. I’ve been trying to control this habit of theirs for a very long time. By doing this I have constructed a cage or barrier between us that reads NO SMOKING and on the other-side there is no tolerance for smoking whatsoever.
My personal views on smoking aside, I do have this viewpoint because I love them and am not ready to part with them and their health is important to me. Well this barrier that I’ve created is harmful, not only to myself but to them and our relationship in general.
I cannot walk a mile in their shoes. I cannot make decisions for them. I can respectfully ask that they quit smoking for their health. I release my need to control this. I release the barrier I’ve created. It’s not up to me to control this. I love them regardless of the smoking and will enjoy whatever life has left to us and pray that they see the health benefits in quitting, in time.
No longer do I try to control it. No longer will I withhold love because they smoke. No longer will it come between us. So Mote It Be.