Every breath, a blessing

at Hann's Park under a Willow tree near the stream

at Hann’s Park under a Willow tree near the stream

It seems at times that perhaps I will be able to catch my breath and recover a little bit from the continual reeling and beating that life is offering me.  Every time I feel a little bit of relief, I seemingly get kicked again.  This has been an on-going struggle now for many months and one that is cyclical in my path.  For each step I take backwards I will take two steps forward.  The path and journey I have chosen for this lifetime is not one that is easy but of immense value to me.

Many of the things I have said and done over the years, sound the same or similar and at the very essence of them, they are similar.  The thing is, I am always growing and evolving and working on being “better”.  This is a journey that has no destination.  When I am dead, this journey will be over but not until then.  With each “thing” there is a growth period.  This period can manifest in the way of a Dark Night of the Soul or in the way of something truly celebratory.

Lately I have been working on a great many things including emerging from the  depression that has plagued me for sometime now.  Please do not misunderstand, my depression is situational, I had a series of events crop up back to back to back that really just tore me down emotionally and left me raw.  When I am feeling raw, I tend to stay in and lick my wounds.  As the healing process progresses, I become more and more like “myself” leading towards a happy me.  It’s just something that must be done and experienced for personal and spiritual growth.

Some of my greatest joys in life are spending time with family, my animals, friends and even occasionally not doing anything at all aside from reading.  I am not a true extrovert nor am I a complete introvert.  I sort of straddle the fence between the two in any given situation.

What does all this have to do with anything?  Well, to put it bluntly it’s how I live life.  I vacilitate from one color to the next and experience the full gamut that life has to offer.  Every breath I take, is a blessing.  Every pain, also a blessing.  Behind each action is something that I am striving to achieve, something I need to feel or be a part of.

This extends to every facet of my life.  My job is a blessing.  Where else will I get to work and train students from around the world in a spiritual pathway that I absolutely adore?  I contribute to the community that helped me grow to be the Priestess I am today, which will be a whole other post in of itself when I get the words right.  My home life is peaceful and in general not something overly complicated.  I consider myself blessed to love and be loved in return.

Where does that leave me?  Continuing on this quest for evolution of my own spirit and person.  I will always be growing, learning and working on being healthy.  Life is not stagnant so I will not treat it as such.  I guess this is just me having a day to babble.  May you be blessed and be loved in all you are and all you do.

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Posted on 30 July '14 by , under Life.