Changes in heart and life

For two and a half months I left home.  I left home to be a part of a new home and an event that would forever change my life.

This time away from home shaped me in ways that I could not have predicted or even believed if I had been told.  What was this trip I am speaking of?  To those who are new to my writing, I visited the Sacred Mists Covenstead for two and a half months helping the wonderful Lady Raven Moonshadow open the first physical location of the Sacred Mists Shoppe.

When I tell you that the work ahead of us was unimaginable that’s an understatement really.  It seemed impossible when I arrived on 7/2 that we would be able to accomplish all that lay before us.  When the product from the old warehouse finally arrived, our spirits were dashed because of the shape it arrived to us in after being delayed in the trek across country.  I have never in my life seen such utter disregard for how another person’s property was treated except perhaps by thieves or vandals.  The state of many of our inventory, rendered it ‘ugly’ at best and at worst a complete loss.  We began the repurchasing and eventual re-picking of customer orders from boxes.

Learning new systems provided us a great deal of difficulty and errors as a new team was trained to do what we had not done in house for several years.  We are still working through the horrible backlog and clearing things out as quickly as we can and I am pushing myself daily to meet the expectations of our customers.   This is neither here nor there at the moment.

We worked very long days and we worked everyday without exception.  We met our deadline and opened to a beautiful splash on August 27th.   It was absolutely amazing to see it all come together as everyone worked long days and nights to meet a deadline.  The teamwork involved was without a doubt there and every person wanted success!

Once we were open we were able to see where things really stood with shipping and began the arduous work of clearing out and contacting customers and working hard to keep our customers happy.  In some cases we were able to do so, in others not so much.  There is a limit and we learned ours.

Time was approaching and only one thing remained to be done.  We had our talks, we finished my work and the last thing was…my initiation.  Over the course of many late night dinners Lady Raven and I would talk of the Coven, of my path, my dedication, my Great Work, my journey.  I have a very strong sense of dedication to MY PATH.  My path lies along side her path.  I am called to SERVE Sacred Mists, the students within her and failure is not an option.  My CALL is so loud and strong to my heart, it brings me tears of joy and happiness to feel a part of something that is so beautiful and to be a part of so many paths.

On September 8th, the day before I left for the Goddess Festival in the Santa Cruz Mountains, organized by Z. Budapest and Susan B. Anthony Coven #1, this was the night that would push my direction even further.  The work I had done in the store, was very affirming, very spiritual and well a lot of hard work to boot.  The work I do for the Circle, School and Coven, is intensely spiritual, hard work, and LIFE AFFIRMING.  Both pieces came together in harmony and joy while I was there.

My initiation was intensely personal and private.  I sat in a circle of Crystals, Light and shimmering energy with Lady Raven and laid my heart and spirit before her.  My path bound to hers.  My spirit sister made sister.  What I can share with you of my initiation is this.   While intensely personal it was also about the Coven and Circle.  To become a High Priestess of a Tradition means you OWN it in your heart and you will always do what is best for the Coven.  It means you feel things that affect the Coven intensely in your heart and truly your heart joins with the Heart of the Coven, with Lady Raven and with me for anyone who follows me.

If you feel called to serve as I do…it’s not an easy path to walk.  To get through the tangles, snarls and brambles that life will throw in the way is truly difficult.  There will be times that you wish to “chuck it all in” and walk away.  If you are called, those thoughts quickly are banished and you struggle forward through each mistake you make.  Through each failure and fall, you get up, you brush yourself off and you learn to forge on and incorporate that lesson in your path.

Let me tell you brothers and sisters, that’s not an easy thing to do.  I’ve made some whopper mistakes, some falls that I thought would break me.  By working within my path and my faith I was able to move forward and become a better person.

Since my trip, I feel more intensely.  I hear more sweetly.  I speak more gently and with more compassion.  Each feeling, each sound, each word is meant truly from my heart.

Since Lilyth Avexyn left her home on July 2nd, she grew into a different spirit (the spirit was there, just waiting for the time to emerge through Lilyth).  On September 8, 2010 I became that Spirit.  I took on a responsibility and role I have wanted for a very long time to a path I am absolutely called to.

I became Lady Lilyth Amicia Moonshadow.

About my name.  Over the years (and many of you remember the plethora I will speak of), I have had many different names, trying out what suited me and what might work for me.  Eventually I became Lilyth and had a variation of middle names.  I had never taken on a surname.  I was Lilyth Avexyn for among the shortest.  Avexyn was a placeholder for a name I knew that began with an A but did not see yet.   That name was given to me on 9/8/2010 and it was Amicia.  Amicia envelopes a gentle spirit who carries innocence and experience both tempered with joy, love and the wisdom needed to serve.  I decided to take Moonshadow on as my surname to honor my High Priestess Lady Raven and let it be known that I am proud of Her, my Coven, my Path and walk it with grace.   Oh don’t get me wrong I will still fall flat on my face but I will always pick myself up.

I will share my journey with you along the way and hope you will share yours with me.

Brightest Blessings,
-Lady Lilyth

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Posted on 30 September '10 by , under Circle, Growth, Lady Raven, ritual, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Training, Wicca.

2 Comments to “Changes in heart and life”

#1 Posted by Amethyst Starr Fae (30.09.10 at 11:14 )

Lilyth, I am so happy for you and your new found “self”. You are truly inspiring, and I can only hope to find the spirit within my self as beautifully and magnificently as you have. You are such a wonderful person, thank you for sharing your path and your light with us. Brightest Blessings!

#2 Posted by Lilyth Avexyn (01.10.10 at 10:57 )

Amethyst Starr Fae, you are an absolute treasure. I truly hope that we will get to share our path more as time goes on…afterall you are so close to Isleen it seems impossible to not share in that too. 🙂 Many Blessings to you always! -Lady Lilyth