Change in the Dark Night

Not for the sake of change, but because change is inevitable, we as humans must learn to cope and adapt to the things in our lives that change.  For a little while now I have been walking through a “dark night of the soul”.

The concept of the Dark Night may not be familiar to everyone and it may just sound intimidating and rather frightening.  To those of us on a spiritual journey in this life we will go through periods where we feel utterly alone, where we question every aspect of our path.  It’s isolation, it’s pain and the eventual re-join with the joy of life and spirit.

I have been neck deep in my own Dark Night now for several months.  It has seemed that no matter which direction I turn it’s the wrong avenue, it’s the wrong decision, it’s just plain bad.  Each step has been through brambles.  Each time I reach out, I am greeted by thorns and nettles.  As the year and the current Earthly cycle comes to a close from dark to light on yule, I feel too that my dark nights are coming to a blissful and well-learned end.

It’s almost as if I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Pieces are falling into place for me and though there is much work still to be done between now and the end of this cycle and dark night…the threads that existed between each event are being seen for the first time.  They are all connected and the lessons will be with me for my lifetime.

To me it seems rather synchronous that my own dark night is being worked through as the Wheel of the Year turns towards Yule, the longest night of the year.  At this point, When the light again begins to take rule over the days slowly reaching towards me, that I too come from inside this darkness and step into the new born light.

One of the constants throughout this journey has been the support of my High Priestess, Lady Raven and my sister Raushanna.  My coven mates within Sacred Mists have been there for me throughout this trying time and helping me to see that while I have felt isolated I am not.  Within Sacred Mists, I have found brothers and sisters that are available to me when I need them, friends, coven mates and soul sisters or brothers.  Each a Priest or Priestess in their actions and service.  It is a wonderful thing to have their support and caring.  It is a rare thing to find in a real life coven let alone a virtual one.

As I have journeyed down this darkened path, I have discovered again the things in my life that I wish to hold dear, the talents I have and those that I have forgotten through disuse.  At the crossroads i stand seeking direction and it is given.  Forward I shall continue through the hard work ahead so that when the light begins to shine, I can stand in it’s warmth and feel embraced and joyful.  I may actually at long last be looking forward to the holiday’s this year.

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Posted on 9 December '11 by , under Circle, Dark Night, Growth, Lady Raven, Life, Sacred Mists, shadow quest, Spirituality, Training, Wicca.

One Comment to “Change in the Dark Night”

#1 Posted by Raushanna (22.12.11 at 00:22 )

My dearest love, you have always been there for me. I am honored to walk this Path with you, and to call you friend and sister. From my vantage point, you are amazing. We are all human, none of us is perfect, but your intention to help and to serve makes you glow, whether things turn out right, they turn out as they were meant to be.

Dark Nights are not fun. But what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger. And you are strong!!

Hugs and love!