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A return to balance…

DSCN0831Yesterday I celebrated Mabon with my Coven, The Willow Grove of the Sacred Mists.  It is always a true joy for me to celebrate with the amazing women who have joined this little group.  We are at 5 members now and 3 came yesterday.  It was a lovely little ritual and I am really enjoying putting things together for everyone.  Our Mabon ritual was beautiful and I truly feel a bond with these beautiful women.  As time marches on we will, no doubt, gain new members and go through all that entails and I can’t wait to share the beautiful aspects of life with everyone.

After our ritual was concluded we adjourned to the inside of the house for our feast.  I made potato corn chowder, Pam brought fresh made zucchini bread, fresh berries brought by Janet and Robin.  We chatted and ate together and started doing some planning for activities and crafts together.

Our gatherings are all set up to Samhain with the ability to jiggle the dates slightly.  You can tell that it is now fall here, the air has taken on a slight chill with the same temperatures at night and the days are noticeably shorter than in the summer.  All in all it’s been a great year even with the difficulties that I have encountered.  Triumph over adversity!

On the 28th I am going to do my first ever 5K and I will write about that in a little while separately, everything is so exciting this time of year and I am beside myself with the joy of the season.  After circle yesterday, Jenn came up with Jersey.  We went over to the Mare Island Preserve and walked.  I stopped a little up from the Bowser Garden (half way)…well I stopped at the Garden then rested and continued up a little.  We had dinner at our favorite little family Mexican restaurant around the corner from the house.  I got a new fitbit tracker since the case on the Ultra cracked.  I have the Zip now which will do wireless updates to the dashboard.  only problem is I lost a couple days of data off the Ultra.  Bummer.  Yesterday I did almost 6700 steps. Not my highest but pretty darned good.

I am just all over the place today with my thoughts and am going to call it for right now before I just ramble on and on. 😉

Posted on 23 September '13 by , under Circle, Community, Growth, Holidays, Life, ritual, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

Planting a Grove

Through the trees, the sun shines on me.  The birds are singing and my connection to spirit strengthens.

Through the trees, the sun shines on me. The birds are singing and my connection to spirit strengthens.

Some many months ago I spoke of wanting to start a local circle.  I put that on hold as there were many…MANY things that were keeping my plans up in the air.  Those “things” have all disappeared to the wayside.

This morning I reset my altar that is in the living room.  I spend more time in this room than I do in my office so I thought I’d fix the altar to reflect that.  it looks pretty great.  Later I’ll clean off my working table 😉 and set aside a little space for a candle and incense holder and a clot for them to sit on.

With life starting to settle back into a normal routine again I am feeling, once again called to start a local circle.  This is something I have wanted to do for a very long time and well it’s high time I get it started.  I’ve been considering the how’s and why’s for so long that if I don’t get out of my head and into the world it will simply always be a dream.

At the end of my thoughts I’ve decided a hive or sister grove to Sacred Mists is the ideal way for me to proceed with it.  I’ve decided on a grove so that those who wish to enter can learn from one another and grow together in the bonds of friendship and light.  My maiden name translates to “of the Willow”, Willow has always been a favorite of mine and it just makes sense to have “Willow Grove of Sacred Mists” for my group.  Admittedly I do no t know a great many people in the area yet; however, I would like to get this started by Mabon at the latest.

Gatherers would ideally meet at my house in Vallejo as I have plenty of room (inside and out) for a gathering of up to a dozen or more people.  Tools are present and I would welcome any additions.  I am working on the logistics of “Grove Items and restocking” as well as a few other ‘bylaws’ that would be vital to having a local group.

I am looking forward to this next chapter with an amazing amount of peace and joy.

Posted on 1 July '13 by , under Circle, Growth, Life, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. No Comments.

A deep well of thanks

A modified elemental pentagram with bits added, symbolizing bits of my spirit and my joys.

A modified elemental pentagram with bits added, symbolizing bits of my spirit and my joys.

I’d like to tell a little story, one of a rocky road filled with love, laughter, joy, despair and well…life.

It’s around October of 2007 when the question came to me, I don’t remember the exact verbiage but I do remember the shock that I felt.  Something like “Dierna and Saets want to have a baby, it’s top secret right now since they aren’t pregnant yet.  Dierna is not going to be able to work for a while and I was wondering if you might consider working for me”.  Wait what?  Doing Student Services and stuff really?  REALLY?  Talk it over with Keith and see what he says I can offer you this plus you’d get to work from home.  SHOCK. EXCITEMENT!

Let me explain a little about my job to that point.  I was the “Channel Manager” which is a fancy title for does a little of everything.  I handled new plan creation, plan modifications, notifications, sales database management, sales database lead entries, sales lead tracking and whatever else they decided to throw at me.  I had been quite unhappy for a little while and of course my co-workers thought I was exaggerating in how they treated me, which to say it was bad would be an understatement.  I was miserable.  I hated coming to work on a good day and detested it on a bad day.  It was not at all a healthy thing for me to continue doing.  This offer though seemed like a silver platter filled with awesome on it.

We talked it over and decided to give it a whirl.  Worst case scenario it did not work out and I’d have to find another job somewhere else.  Best case scenario…well I’m living it, not to jump too far ahead.  After discussions we decided that I would start the following March as Dierna and Saets were successful rather fast in their endeavor and she wanted to have a few months to train me but needed to get things in line and she was not in a huge hurry…well that would be perfect.

In December I tendered my resignation effective the last day of February of 2008.  By the time I started, the first week of March, Dierna was preggy and feeling it.  We’d talk about it while we were on MSN Voice and she’d teach me how to do what she did.  HOLY CRAP there was a lot to this job.  I hoped that I would be successful at it.

That year was pretty rough for me in a lot of ways because I failed A LOT.  I messed up A LOT.  But with each mistake I learned and grew so the next mistake was something different generally.  Who knew? LOL

In the, now 5, years that have passed since that decision was made I have become a stronger woman, priestess and have found that my calling in life is being fulfilled.  Though it is not in the way I visioned it years before I met Lorien or heard of Sacred Mists, this place fills my spirit fully.  For the opportunity, I am thankful.  For the patience, I am thankful.  For the continued support, I am thankful.  For the friendships, I am thankful.  From within myself I find that I have a very deep well of things I am thankful for in this life and the lessons I am learning each day.

Me on 2-27-2013 as I was working in my living room before I left for Napa for work stuff.

Me on 2-27-2013 as I was working in my living room before I left for Napa for work stuff.

I become a little closer to my spirit each day.  I become happier each day.  I no longer resent working. I  no longer detest going to work.  I look forward to each day and each challenge with renewed spirit and joy.  There are good days and bad days and yet even the bad days are still filled with challenge, joy and love for what I do.

I hope to be doing this for the rest of my days, however long that may be.

Posted on 6 March '13 by , under Life, Sacred Mists. 1 Comment.

Sleepless Night

It’s interesting to me that I have been awake now for a couple of hours.  I was awakened by noises in the bedroom and by the sheets touching me.  Now I realize this sounds strange.  It happens to me from time to time though.  I will wake up without any real reason and my skin will be ultra-sensitive and my hearing sharpened.  I have not figured out what causes it.  Tonight I took an extra benadryl and well it’s finally starting to calm down after a couple of hours. I could not focus on anything really so I futzed around with my blog design and came up with a couple of new ones.

This week has been rather interesting thus far.  Tuesday it was upset stomach of doom, that still is lingering with me.  I can’t figure out what the cause of it really is so I am being gentle with what I am eating and so far so good, no repeat episodes.  Wednesday the upset lingered then followed up with the skin and hearing sensitivity.  It’s making getting through this week rather interesting all around for me.

As we continue down the path of health and peace at home, we watched our first movie on our new TV.  We, of course, are using the X-Box for a dvd player and well it was an interesting experience.  We’ve not owned a TV for several years now and I am not about to watch TV on cable (bleah) but an occassional movie after work seems reasonable.  We decided to watch Serenity tonight for the millionth time.  What a difference this new tv is.  The textures were more crisp, colors more vivid it was amazing and was complete immersion.  To test a theory we got a True Blood s1 disc out and popped it in, half way through Serenity.  To find the same immersion that we saw in Serenity.

So now it’s morning and I managed to get a little sleep between the above and this part of my post.  I am still feeling a bit on the unwell side but I will manage to make it through the day and still rock out to getting everything done that is on my list today PLUS get moving on the new course we are going to offer by Courtney Weber on Spellcrafting.  Very EXCITING new class.  For now I think I am going to just read some homework and make my notes for a bit then get to work maybe a little early.

Posted on 17 January '13 by , under Life, Sacred Mists. No Comments.

An interesting trio

Ace of Wands, Two of Pentacles, The Emperor ~ Shadowscapes Tarot by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law

Ace of Wands, Two of Pentacles, The Emperor ~ Shadowscapes Tarot by Stephanie Pui-Mun Law

I got up much earlier than normal this morning thanks to an alarm snafu on my part, so I have managed to get a few things done early today and that means time for a reading this morning instead of later today.

I’ve taken to doing a different type of shuffling of my deck since I’ve been “in love” with the wands suit now for a bit so cut it a couple times in different variations and then smooth shuffling.  It seems that no matter what I do to shuffle I end up with a wands card so I am going to roll with it for as long as they wish to grace me. 🙂  Wands afterall often deal with career and work oriented messages and those are coming through loud and to the front with all the changes at work lately anyway.

Ace of Wands ~ Again we take a look at this beautiful and foxy card.  It’s the possibility of creativity and excitement, a challenge to step up with courage and confidence.  Time to plant the wand, my desire and will, and watch it manifest.  Inspiration will come easily and while this is also a fire card, with fire being unpredictable, wield the flame of inspiration and creativity with purpose and the blaze that is trailed will be one of success.

Two of Pentacles ~Standing on one leg you see him delicately balancing all that is before him while on a rocky terrace.  Below the platform he stands on a chameleon is curled into the symbol for balance, the Yin/Yang.  Here you see some of the struggles that may come from the creative fire of the Ace of Wands.  It is a balancing act to keep everything in motion while still being flexible and adapting to changes as they come  quickly and easily.  Meeting these challenges as they tumble towards me with confidence and will and the balancing act will pay off, I must be aware of my work load and not take on too much.  Time to remember that I can share my load with other people through good communication and training.

The Emperor ~ Fascinating!  Creating order form chaos.  Showing Authority, leadership, strength and establishing order in my world.  The carvings in the card symbolize domain and dominion of said domain.   The Emperor is ruler of life and the wild, he has touched the chaos and brought it within to give it order and light.

When I look at these cards together I see a path being set before me that speaks of leadership, of creating and sharing.  YES!  This fits into what I plan for this year nicely.  I will stay on the path and put together the circle and hive coven for the area.  I have the creativity and will to help birth it and make it work.  I do not have to do it alone and can bring something new and beautiful to the area.  Time to sit down and start planning!

Posted on 10 January '13 by , under Growth, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Tarot, Training, Wicca. No Comments.

Gemstone Spotlight ~ Amethyst

Several of the Amethysts that are always on my personal altar, currently being "charged" on my altar tile.

Several of the Amethysts that are always on my personal altar, currently being “charged” on my altar tile.

Ah, amethyst how I love thee like so many have for thousands of years.  Long viewed as a stone of royalty it has been set into crowns, scepters and even rings for bishops.  It is said to even have been the ninth stone in the breastplate of the High Priest of Israel and one of the ten stones upon which the names of the tribes of Israel were engraved.

Amethyst’s name is derived from the Greek word meaning “not drunken” and an ancient Greek myth, which explains it.  “The God, Bacchus, angry because of an insult, decreed that the first person he met would be eaten by his tigers.  The unfortunate person happened to be Amethyst on her way to worship at the shrine of Diana.  When the tigers sprang, Diana transformed the girl into a clear, transparent crystal.  In remorse, Bacchus poured the juice of his grapes over the stone as an offering, thus giving the gem it’s beautiful color. ”  The Greeks believed that Amethyst would calm anger, relieve frustrated passion and prevent intoxication.

Used in metaphysical practice, Amethyst is often called for healing, meditation and psychic abilities.  Amethyst’s ability to activate the higher mind is key in gaining clarity of mind and thought.  Through this clarity you can comprehend more clearly the dynamics of your life experiences and overcome (thus healing) the traumas of life and spirit.  Amethyst further can assist in emotion based decisions through the clarity previously mentioned.

With the clarity and peace that Amethyst can bring a practitioner, it is no wonder that it is often used for Healing and in Healing Practices.

A couple of affirmations for Amethyst:

  • “I am purified and uplifted through my connection to the divine”
  • “With clarity and purified spirit, I release and offer healing to myself and those I care for

Some of my favorite Amethyst pieces I have gotten from Sacred Mists Shoppe in Napa.

Amethyst Pyramid, Amethyst Wand, Amethyst Crystal Ball, Amethyst Druzy Cluster

Posted on 9 January '13 by , under Goddesses, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Training. No Comments.

Daily Insight ~ Three of Wands

This morning's reading sitting in front of my healing, strength and peace altar.

This morning’s reading sitting in front of my healing, strength and peace altar.

This morning I decided to do some extra shuffling in my deck.  Partially because I have been very wands heavy in readings lately and wanted to see if that would make a difference or not. 😉  Clearly it makes no difference I will pull a wands card if the message is right.

I think this card is absolutely stunning .  A woman stands on the edge of a “cliff” after having made an arduous journey up the slope of the mountain.   There have been many hardships along the way.  Standing on the precipice she is in deep thought looking over the valley and river below.  She has come far, when others have turned back at this point.  Now it seems is the time for making the decision to continue on into uncharted territory.  Taking a view of the situation from the high level, express leadership and continue on.

Interesting pull for today.  Each card lately seems to be centered on a theme.  The theme being continue on and be the leader that resides within me by taking chances.  One of the things that I have been considering is something that is very dear to my heart and that is having a local group with which I can practice my art and add something to the community at the same time.  In essence I want to start my hive of Sacred Mists at last.  I have a couple people locally who would be interested in a circle.  One of the things at the present holding me back is my husband’s job.  He currently works out of a San Francisco office, which is ideal for me to start a circle in the Vallejo/Napa area.  Around March his office is moving to Pleasanton.  The challenge becomes to start something now and then if we have to move disbanding it and starting again?  The question is whether we can make the commute work if he’s driving two times a week with one or two times being an alternative option (Mass Transit) and one day from home.  If this type of situation works then we could stay here, which is something I would absolutely love anyway.  So much hinges on the commute that I am hesitant to start.  If I start it now, which I’d love to, will I only have to disband and start over?  I would hate to do that to people.  This is uncharted territory for me and I am thinking it’s time to step off the cliff and get it going by Imbolc.  *takes a step* Wish me luck.

Posted on 2 January '13 by , under Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Tarot, Training. No Comments.

Living a Spiritual Life

One of the greatest joys of my chosen path is the diversity in which I am afforded for practice.  I am a Goddess worshiping Wiccan of the Sacred Mists Tradition.

For me, it is important that my life has meaning and that I use the gifts I was born with to help others as well as the area around me.  This means I live spiritually and with my heart.  It’s not always been easy and it won’t always be easy; however, this is the life I have chosen and will take the ups as well as the downs that come along with it.

Each day I greet the same, often in a grumbly way when the alarm first goes off.  I’m not much of a morning person but I am morphing into one out of the necessities of this life.  After the furry family is fed I will take my wonderful husband to the Ferry Terminal so that he can begin his trek into the wonderful city of San Francisco for work.  Once I am home I begin my day in earnest.

I start off by getting myself some breakfast then brushing my teeth, you know normal morning stuff!  Once I finish that I will either play with the dog or work on my crafting projects that need to be taken care of.  When it’s time to get to the desk I will clear off some space, set down my drink for the morning and focus.  I focus with my altar candle for the day’s energy.  I will light the candle with intentions of joy and laughter for the day and to be filled with peace no matter what situations arise.

As I do this first step I begin to infuse my surroundings with the peace that I want to hold onto.  No better way to keep the peace that I want for my day than to spread it around my space and with every finger stroke on my keyboard.  By this time I am truly centered and ready to tackle anything that comes at me.

Once I have finished with my initial focus for the day I turn to my strength, peace, healing and joy altar.  These are elements hat so many people need every day regardless of a situation.  This is where I send those energies next.  On this altar are pieces and reminders of friends, family, brothers and sisters.  The candle is a huge 3×6 when I first get it ready.  On the top I inscribe “peace, strength, healing, joy”, down the sides I inscribe the names of people who have asked or given me permission to send these energies to them.  Pictures, gemstones and stuffies represent some permanent residents of this altar.  I will light this candle everyday and let it burn for 3-4 hours (sometimes longer).  At each lighting I will anoint the top portion and send to the candle via Reiki the energies for the day.

Once all this is done I will start opening my work applications and web-pages to really get down to business.  Throughout the day I may light a cone of my favorite Amber Sun Incense or take a moment to send a little extra energy to someone who has crossed my mind.

As I work, I smile often and do my best to bring joy to those I have contact with and to myself.  What I do is not glamorous work, but I believe in it deeply.  Working for Sacred Mists and Sacred Mists Shoppe allows me to help people who come to us for training, who come to us for their supplies or gifts.  I don’t always do a good job, but I always learn from my mistakes and apply them to whatever I am doing so that I can personally continue to grow and serve the community that I so love.

What does it mean to live a spiritual life?  It means being honest to myself, my path, my community and to continually grow with my community.  I endeavor to be genuine in communications as my desire to be of the greatest assistance is heartfelt.  I love my work and my growth.  I have come a long way in the 10 years I have been with Sacred Mists, as a student and will continue to grow with our students.  I am a Sacred Mists Tradition High Priestess, I learn and grow with our students, I share my path with those who wish to be a part of it, I advocate causes I believe in and most importantly I am a spiritual soul having a human experience.

I guess I have babbled on and on enough and probably repeated myself a few times over. 🙂

Posted on 12 November '12 by , under Growth, Life, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Wicca. 1 Comment.

The longest night

 Last night marked the longest night of the year as Winter Solstice came upon us, (and in my head I have Samuel L Jackson saying it “And Solstice came upon us with great challenges and magnificent changes”) and though I was working rather late I took time to attend the Sacred Mists Yule Ritual that was being led by Raushanna last evening and even though I knew the ritual before attending through the Third Degree submission process, I was amazed by the feelings that surrounded me.  Sometimes, I do not at all connect in a ritual and sometimes I am blown away.  Last night was the latter.

One of my biggest failures is that I am filled with self-doubt and self-defeating behaviors which create a vicious loop of me never being enough and not succeeding.  Harmful self talk creates this horrific ribbon of where I feel I have failed or not done enough and it just keeps looping around and around.  As light becomes reborn, I too am going to go through a rebirth.  There are a great many transformations that are appearing in my life.  Rebirth is on the horizon.  Working with this transformative and birth energy, I release the fear of success and never being enough (so self doubt and self-defeating behaviors) so that within myself I light the spark of successes and goals achieved, the spark of creation and life so that all doubt will be erased from my spirit and heart.

The wording on this was quite intentional because in order for me to work through this and achieve successes where I wish I must change the way that I think, I must release the fears and change the harmful and self-deprecating behaviors and words to ones that fill me with confidence and allow what is inside to shine throughout.

Over the last several months I have been challenged time and time again with  things that have threatened to change my perceptions and how I am with people and what I have to offer.  Remembering that I will always do my best, I will never lie and I will always be there when needed.  The changes are worth it, they cannot be born without pain.

I connect with the power of rebirth and light and infuse my life with the energy of Birth, with birth comes change, pain and much to rejoice in.

Posted on 22 December '11 by , under Dark Night, Growth, Life, ritual, Sacred Mists, Spirituality, Training, Wicca. 2 Comments.

Change in the Dark Night

Not for the sake of change, but because change is inevitable, we as humans must learn to cope and adapt to the things in our lives that change.  For a little while now I have been walking through a “dark night of the soul”.

The concept of the Dark Night may not be familiar to everyone and it may just sound intimidating and rather frightening.  To those of us on a spiritual journey in this life we will go through periods where we feel utterly alone, where we question every aspect of our path.  It’s isolation, it’s pain and the eventual re-join with the joy of life and spirit.

I have been neck deep in my own Dark Night now for several months.  It has seemed that no matter which direction I turn it’s the wrong avenue, it’s the wrong decision, it’s just plain bad.  Each step has been through brambles.  Each time I reach out, I am greeted by thorns and nettles.  As the year and the current Earthly cycle comes to a close from dark to light on yule, I feel too that my dark nights are coming to a blissful and well-learned end.

It’s almost as if I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.  Pieces are falling into place for me and though there is much work still to be done between now and the end of this cycle and dark night…the threads that existed between each event are being seen for the first time.  They are all connected and the lessons will be with me for my lifetime.

To me it seems rather synchronous that my own dark night is being worked through as the Wheel of the Year turns towards Yule, the longest night of the year.  At this point, When the light again begins to take rule over the days slowly reaching towards me, that I too come from inside this darkness and step into the new born light.

One of the constants throughout this journey has been the support of my High Priestess, Lady Raven and my sister Raushanna.  My coven mates within Sacred Mists have been there for me throughout this trying time and helping me to see that while I have felt isolated I am not.  Within Sacred Mists, I have found brothers and sisters that are available to me when I need them, friends, coven mates and soul sisters or brothers.  Each a Priest or Priestess in their actions and service.  It is a wonderful thing to have their support and caring.  It is a rare thing to find in a real life coven let alone a virtual one.

As I have journeyed down this darkened path, I have discovered again the things in my life that I wish to hold dear, the talents I have and those that I have forgotten through disuse.  At the crossroads i stand seeking direction and it is given.  Forward I shall continue through the hard work ahead so that when the light begins to shine, I can stand in it’s warmth and feel embraced and joyful.  I may actually at long last be looking forward to the holiday’s this year.

Posted on 9 December '11 by , under Circle, Dark Night, Growth, Lady Raven, Life, Sacred Mists, shadow quest, Spirituality, Training, Wicca. 1 Comment.