Divination Method: The Secret Language of Animals Oracle Cards
Card(s) Drawn: Crayfish
Key Word(s): Protection, Perseverance, Vulnerability, Regeneration
Harvesting the lessons of all that has been…
Honoring the gifts of all that is
I expand my way of seeing, being and doing in the world
For the good of all.
This week it’s time to examine the structure of our lives, and figure out what it is we need to proceed along our path. Crayfish reminds us that, while structure is good and necessary to live a healthy and fulfilling life, it can also be confining and stifle our growth.
If you’re starting to feel like you’re under a lot of pressure and the walls are closing in on you, it isn’t time to retreat inside yourself, it’s time to bust the hell out of your confinement and partake of a little growth.
When busting out of your shell, however, be sure to take stock of all you have learned to this point, and retain that which can help you as you continue on your journey. While it isn’t necessarily time to hide from the world, this process of continued Transformation and Metamorphosis, it would be prudent to exercise a little caution, as all change brings about a period of vulnerability as we become acclimated to our “new normal”. When in this vulnerable state, we have a tendency to glom on to anything that offers us comfort…but choose your sources of comfort carefully, as now would be a time when it would be very easy to fall into bad habits (old or new).
And, since, what would a post be without a Pixie Pop Culture Reference – I’m gonna share the song that was running through my head as I wrote this (the song as a whole may not be exactly relevant…but the chorus isn’t leaving my brain…so I’m putting it in yours…you’re welcome).
Some of you may be confused by the title of this post, but as most of you awesome readers are pagans, I think you’ll get what I mean by this.
I like to look at endings as beginnings that’ve gotten a bad rap. Think about it. A birth is the beginning of life, but also the end of a pregnancy. Ends are simply transitions and/or transformations. We simply move on to another state of being. This holds true whether we are talking a change in careers, a change in marital status, or a change from corporeal life to ethereal life.
That’s something to keep in mind this time of year. Not only are we currently in the midst of a seasonal transition…but as Samhain approaches it becomes much easier to catch a glimpse at the ethereal side of life as the veil between this world and the next becomes quite thin.
You may also want to mull the concept over if you’re going through something that traditionally feels like an end. Examine the situation and find the positives. What new thing has (or could) come out of this “ending”? What opportunities await you as you embark on this new leg of your life’s journey?
The Pixie commands thee to find that silver lining!! lol
Anyway, here’s a few quotes to drive home what I’m talking about…the first one is the one that sparked this little Ramble Train. It’s a little something that was stated by the Master of Horror, and my favorite author, Stephen King! 😀
“Life is like a wheel. Sooner or later,
it always come around to where you started again.”
“Our life is an apprenticeship to the truth that around every circle another can be drawn; that there is no end in nature, but every end is a beginning, and under every deep a lower deep opens.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson
“The world is round and the place which may seem like the end
may also be the beginning.”
Ivy Baker Priest
This last one, including the photo, is mine. 😉
Yes, I know this sounds like I’m totally full of myself and like I’m all sorts of cocky and arrogant about my ability to impart all the answers in life. Trust me, that’s not really it…just hang with me for a bit and see if I can get across what I mean.
Once Upon a Time, there was a little Pixie who always had inklings about things…and who was also pretty damn smart to boot. The trouble is, this Pixie did not trust herself to listen to her inklings…in fact, she often would run swiftly in the exact opposite direction, often resulting in a whole heap-o-misery.
She had (and still has) an amazing friend who always told her she should “trust her gut”, because her instincts were good, and perhaps things would start to go her way if she would only go where her gut was trying to lead her. MANY years, and MANY mistakes later, the Pixie figured mayyyyyybe it was time to try this whole following of the gut thing…I mean, it couldn’t POSSIBLY make things any worse than they were…right???
So, she would follow her gut…at least more often than not…and things started to go a bit more smoothly. Little by little the gut was listened to more and more. Then the Pixie became involved with a coven and began to work through all of her issues with insecurities, and actually began sharing little tidbits and insights with others….and ya know what? She was pretty freaking insightful! She started out a little tentatively with her advice…but, she eventually became aware of when it was truly a message that was to be relayed due to her abilities as an Empath and/or as a conduit for a message from the Divine.
This very thinly veiled story is, of course, autobiographical and chronicles my journey to trusting myself, and the information that lies within…whether that information has been acquired through academic study, life experience, Empathic ability, connection with Spirits/Ancestors, or Divine Intervention – the fact of the matter is: it’s correct, and is being shared for a reason. There is a phrase that has started being spread throughout those in coven, and spilling over to those without: Never doubt The Shawna. Seriously, folks are saying it…granted it’s not multitudes or anything, but still, it’s folks. lol
Anywhoooooo, here’s the part where I give YOU a bit of the stuffs that comes outta me, because y’all need to hear it. YOU can do the same thing. Yup, you can. You too have a gut that gives you inklings and nudges you in the right direction…BUT IT WON’T WORK UNLESS YOU LEARN TO FREAKING LISTEN TO IT AND THEN FOLLOW THROUGH!!!! OK, perhaps the caps were going a tad overboard…but I really don’t think so. You need to hear and heed this message. I am not wrong about this. It can be so incredibly hard to listen….especially because sometimes what your gut is telling you seems absolutely freaking NUTS. You might listen to it and think “NOPE! You’re wrong Mr./Miss Gut. There’s no F-ing WAY that is the course of action I should take. I don’t see how it will work, let alone lead to what I want.” Well, you see, that last bit is the kicker: It may not lead you where you WANT to go, but it sure as hell will lead you where you NEED to go. (Pop Culture alert!) It’s kinda like what Idris (Who is actually the TARDIS) says to The Doctor in the episode of Doctor Who entitled “The Doctor’s Wife”:
So, I guess what I’m saying is this: listen to your inner TARDIS…it will always take you where you need to go.
If your empathic in any way, the title to this post may freak you out a bit. I totally get it. I used to keep myself so closed off it was NUTS! Any gifts that I have had practically stopped surfacing, I was not open to messages during my waking hours, which is why I was flooded with prophetic dreams for years. I ignored my need to be close to others…my need for others to SEE the REAL me. I was afraid of, not only who the real me might turn out to be, but afraid of how others would react.
Well, once I figured out that I was an Empath, I pretty much obliterated all of my defenses…that may not have been the wisest course of action, as I was now pretty defenseless, and had a hard time discerning my emotions from those of the people around me. Eventually I learned various shield techniques, as well as what stones & crystals would aid in keeping things in check.
There were some freaky moments in the time that it took me to get a hold of this whole, not only Empath me…but real whole package me. I started letting some of my shield down…and carrying fewer stones, because I realized I could now distinguish between my feelings and those of everyone else.
I still have a bit of a “psychic buffer up” but it doesn’t hide me from the world. I guess you could say I took a little advice from Faye Dunaway as Joan Crawford in Mommie Dearest. One of my favorite lines is when she and her new Pepsi Mogul hubby are having their NYC apartment renovated. The contractor says that “This bitch of a bearing wall is blocking my view”.
Joan contemplates this dilemma for a moment then replies, in a most dramatic fashion “Tear down that bitch of a bearing wall and put a window where it ought to be!” (Here, watch it, I LOVE IT! 😀 )
I guess that’s what my advice to all of you is this week. Whether you’ve built them because your an Empath, or because you’re afraid others will try to hurt you. TEAR DOWN THAT BITCH OF A BEARING WALL, and put a window to your Awesome where it ought to be!
When we are open to being viewed at our core, and to receiving the inner light of others, we all become a bit more connected. Our lives become more fulfilling. Will there be pain? Of course there will, human’s hurt other humans…even if we don’t mean to…that is the fragile nature of emotions.
However, you can learn from all of these newly heightened interactions, both good & bad, and use them to stoke that furnace O’ Awesome that is your spirit. This leaves you open to make some unbelievable connections with people.
I was fortunate enough to have let my walls down for a couple of people before I destroyed them…and they have resulted in the two most fulfilling relationships of my life. That with my best friend, and that with my husband. Since my conscious and permanent destruction however, I have connected with SO many people. More than I ever would have thought possible. This introvert – YES, Introvert! – has expanded her “bubble of existence” to include heaps of folks. I’m SO glad I brought in the proverbial wrecking ball (Cue Miley Cyrus, LOL) and laid waste to my emotional bearing wall.
I’m not sure if this is making any sense to anyone…but it hit home with me, so now you get to read it. LOL Feel free to comment or ask questions if you have any. I always love a good discussion! 😀
Being that my not-so-alter-ego is that of a Puckish Pixie, Faeries are something quite near and dear to my heart. Their history is also rooted in Celtic Irish Mythology, which makes them quite important to my Spiritual Path as well. So, where to start? How about we head on back roughly 4000 years, and take a brief peek at the Tuatha de Danann.
The Tuatha de Danann were, quite literally, the People of the goddess Danu. According to the Annals of the Four Masters (chronicle of medieval Irish history, compiled between 1632 and 1636 in a Fransiscan monestary), they were a powerful ancient tribe who ruled Ireland from 1897 to 1700 BCE. Until they were defeated in battle by the Milesians.
According to legend, after the Milesian’s victory their leader, Amergin, was called upon to divide the land between the two Peoples. He cleverly split the land with the Milesians Ruling that which was above ground, leaving the Tuatha de Danann to rule all that was below.
The Tuatha de Danann were led underground by their King, The Dagda, and became known as the Aes Sidhe (people of the hills). They are the Faery People of the Otherworld who have been known to intervene in human wars on the side of justice and righteousness.
Throughout most of the Medieval period, Faeries were not seen as beneficial beings to have around. Most people during this time felt it necessary to protect themselves and their families from the fae. It was believed that they would steal children and leave them with a less-than-stellar replacement….why they supposedly did this is not entirely clear. It is possible that this was the way for people of the period to explain away childhood ailments and physical deformities.
Towards the tail end of the Middle Ages, however, as folks were gearing up for the Renaissance the Fae became an integral part of tales told by Bards before the Royal Court. They were fanciful stories of love & trickery…and not nearly as dark & sinister as what some of the superstitions had most recently been. And, while I think that most of these stories still weren’t exactly accurate in their portrayal of faeries, the essence was correct (especially in Shakespeare’s A Midsummer Night’s Dream). Perhaps these Bards (especially ol’ Will) were far more in tune with the nature of things than even they realized.
So, what are Faeries as we know them today? Simply put, Faeries (aka: Fairies, Wee Folk, Pixies, etc…) are nature spirits, but simple is hardly a word I would use to describe them. My favorite description of them comes from 17th-century Scottish minister Robert Kirk who said they are “a middle nature betwixt man and angel.”
Faeries come in many sizes from quite wee to that of ourselves. They are humanoid in their appearance, but they appear to us as more ethereal beings than physical. They reside between realms/dimensions, which is why most people are not aware of them and why even those of us who are aware tend to only catch glimpses of them…most will see them as a glimmer of light that flashes quickly by, barely noticeable at all.
“I believe in everything until it’s disproved. So I believe in fairies, the myths, dragons. It all exists, even if it’s in your mind. Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now? Reality leaves a lot to the imagination.” ~John Lennon
In my experience, faeries like flowers, clover, a nice sunny spot on the lawn, shiny stones & soft tinkly chimes. They also like to hide things…lots of things, at least lots of MY things! LOL They also like water, be it a birdbath, a fountain, or a babbling brook. They like the reflective quality of the water, the way the sunlight glints off the surface…not to mention the way they can make faces at themselves in it. They are also big fans of fun, laughter, integrity, honesty & sincerity.
Generally, the Fae do not like loud sudden noises, clutter (although I think the ones surrounding me must be an exception to this lol), or dirty water. They are also not big fans of dishonesty, chaos, selfishness, or abusers. Basically they are not fans of nasty people & nasty habits, and you certainly can’t fault them for that! 😉
To become friends with these wee winged ones, one must help create a pleasing environment for them (Pretty flowers, a fae house, a fountain and/or birdbath etc), and show respect & a love of nature. Once you’ve created the environment, spending time outside, and being playful will show them you’re not a stick-in-the-mud and just may be someone they want to party with!
Another thing you may want to do is appeal to their love of shinys. Not to say that their friendship can be bought with baubles, because it can’t. However, a gift of a few lovely stones to show them you appreciate them will certainly go a long way in gaining their favor. I mean, who doesn’t like a nice shiny???
Give them their space…meaning don’t intrude in their environment ALL the time (nobody likes a guest who overstays their welcome, including the Fae). Be a decent human being and be kind to nature and all her creatures…and don’t be a phoney. The Fae detest falseness and to be false in order to gain their trust will only backfire.
It’s been almost 5 years since I started this little outlet for my ramblings, and in those 5 years much and more has changed. However, change is one thing we can not avoid, and this place is no exception. This blog’s former name “Isleen’s Magickal Mist-ery Tour” was a testament to the fabulous education I had been receiving from Sacred Mists at the time I started it. But as I said, a lot has changed. I left The Mists a couple years ago, as my Path caused me to get tangled up with the wonderful folks of The Coven of Sangha-Sho that I am now honored to call my friends & coven mates.
A couple months ago, I started to feel as though the name of the blog was no longer an apt representation of me. That got me to thinking about what would sum up my life (both spiritual and mundane) and would be likely to continue to be an apt representation for a very long time. Then it hit me: The Pixilated Path! Why pixilated? Well, first, let me be clear; I do NOT mean ‘pixelated’, as in an image separated into pixels, but ‘pixilated’ which is an early American term that was meant to mean “Led by Pixies”. It was used when speaking of those who could be described as slightly eccentric, amusingly whimsical, prankish, silly, pixie like, etc.
Here’s a clip from one of my FAVORITE old movies Mr. Deeds Goes to Town in which this word is used (Please ignore the misspelling of the word in the title…I am quite disappointed in Turner Classic Movies for getting it wrong. *sigh*)
So, as I am nothing else if not Pixilated, it only seems fitting that my blog should just come out and say so. 😉
In other news! I have signed up to participate in the Pagan Blog Project for 2014! I participated in 2012, and didn’t exactly make it through the whole year, but I am sure going to try this year. Wish me luck! So, I shall keep on keeping on. I keep being the same slightly mad Pixie I’ve always been, and hopefully, you will keep turning up to be entertained and informed by my musings.
Faith is one of those words that tends to be associated with organized religions. Mainly because these tend to ask you to believe in something simply because they say so. The first definition for Faith in the World English Dictionary is: “strong or unshakeable belief in something, esp without proof or evidence”. Well, I’ve never really been someone who believes something just because someone says it is so (go ahead, ask my Mom, lol), so this type of blind Faith never really appealed to me.
I do, however consider myself to be a person of Faith. Some may think this doesn’t reconcile with being pagan, as we follow the changing of the Seasons and the cycles of Life/Death/Rebirth…which are things that there is much proof and evidence to support. So where does Faith come in? It comes in the form of other definitions of the word.
Heading back to our handy dandy World English Dictionary and going a bit further down their list of definitions we come across “any set of firmly held principles or beliefs” . This fits nicely! Pagans do have firmly held principals. Ask any one of us and I’m sure they’d be happy to let you know what they are (Or just check out a facebook, twitter, or G+ feed…I’m sure there is evidence of these strongly held principles and beliefs all over them! It can’t just be me…can it??).
My favorite definition though is “complete confidence or trust in a person, remedy, etc” . Yes! Trust. Trust in the Goddess, in Ourselves, in the Universe…THAT is what Faith means to me. When we trust that listening to our inner dialogue…our intuition, will bring desired results, good things tend to happen. I trust that whatever has been placed before me on my Path has been placed there for a reason, either as a Blessing, or a Lesson.
Trusting ourselves is the hardest thing for most of us. However, the realization that deity and divine energy reside within us makes it much easier. It’s something I have recently begun to have more of… Faith in myself, that is. This Faith is an extension of my Faith that the Divine within me will only direct me where I need to go. Things only tend to go wrong when I don’t trust my gut and, out of fear, choose to do what is easier or more within my comfort zone.
Embrace your belief in the Divine spark within, and in doing so, live a life of Pagan Faith.
I’ve been sitting here for a while trying to decide where to begin…seems sort of unfair to just jump back in with some sort of informative or political post without some sort of explanation as to what the hell happened to me in the last year or so.
So, I decided that I’d share what I had been up to while the blog sat untouched…and why I don’t have any regrets, except that I never thought to include my shenanigans here in the first place.
The past year has been spent exploring and building relationships. Relationships with Family, Friends…and with Myself.
My nephew (Let’s call him “M”) is in the Navy and he and his wife (Let’s go with “A”) moved back home (well, home for him) when he was stationed here to be a recruiter. There were family functions and a little bit of hanging out, and things were just trucking along nicely. Then I got an email from “A” asking me with help interpreting a dream…and with LOTS of questions about what my spiritual beliefs are, etc. Kinda blew me away, in all my time with Sacred Mists an Online Wiccan College, I have helped people get acquainted with their Path, and given my opinion on things, blah blah blah, but this was the first time someone in my mundane life had ever approached me with genuine interest outside of sheer curiosity about my…oddness, lol.
Long story short (umm, sort of) A & I met for coffee, and it turns out we have a whole lot in common, and things I had to say, mainly about my experience with prophetic dreams really put her at ease…and she ended up joining SM as well. I spent more and more time with A, M, and our mutual friends.
Last summer brought displeasure with my work life…almost quit outright, resisted. Hubby made me happy with Daughtry tickets…there was a Birthday Trip to Niagara Falls with Hubby, A & M, and a Ringo Starr concert. And then, I lost my mind and started my own business. I am now Head Pixie on the Isle of Enchantments. I work my butt off daily, and while it’s still a teeny tiny fish in a big humongous pond, I am fulfilled by the work.
I also managed to take my annual trip to Orlando to meet up with very close friends from Sacred Mists. This trip has become affectionately known as: Witches Gone Wild…and boy do we!
And while I did not participate in the day-to-day of SM as often as I should…my Yule Partners in crime and I did make the Sacred Mists Annual Yule Gift Exchange come off with out too many hitches.
So, I’ve been busy…but I’ve been filling my time with friendship, love, & self-fulfillment. These were things I had been shoving to the back burner while I tended to my spiritual responsibilities…I was all one way…then went almost all the other. Now I’m working on getting things back towards the middle. Once again, that Balance lesson is smacking me in the face, screaming at me to learn it. All I can say, is that I’m trying…and will continue to. Perhaps Balance should have a little sit down with Patience?? Just Sayin… 😉
Nope, No Regrets…Just, Lessons. How could anyone possibly regret any of this?: