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I’m going to, once again, apologize for posting this late…but I am on vacation in California for the first time ever, so my day was pretty jam packed full of awesomeness!! Besides, the message for this week is pretty straight forward. LOL

The Card Drawn: Green Tara

Your Fashionably Late #ForesightFriday Forecast for 8/22 - 8/28

Key Word(s): Start Delegating

Basic Message: “Ask others (including  me) to help you, instead of trying to do everything yourself.”

My take on this card: This card is pretty self explanatory. Stop trying to do everything yourself. Ask for help if you need it. Delegate to others. You are truly an awesome individual that is capable of rocking the hell out of your to-do list, but you’re not a super hero, no matter HOW good you looked as your fave character at Comic-Con. So, if someone offers to help you, for the sake of all that is holy in your chosen fandom’s universe: LET THEM HELP YOU!

Never Doubt The Shawna #WednesdayWisdom #NeverDoubtTheShawnaYes, I know this sounds like I’m totally full of myself and like I’m all sorts of cocky and arrogant about my ability to impart all the answers in life. Trust me, that’s not really it…just hang with me for a bit and see if I can get across what I mean.

Once Upon a Time, there was a little Pixie who always had inklings about things…and who was also pretty damn smart to boot. The trouble is, this Pixie did not trust herself to listen to her inklings…in fact, she often would run swiftly in the exact opposite direction, often resulting in a whole heap-o-misery.

She had (and still has) an amazing friend who always told her she should “trust her gut”, because her instincts were good, and perhaps things would start to go her way if she would only go where her gut was trying to lead her. MANY years, and MANY mistakes later, the Pixie figured mayyyyyybe it was time to try this whole following of the gut thing…I mean, it couldn’t POSSIBLY make things any worse than they were…right???

So, she would follow her gut…at least more often than not…and things started to go a bit more smoothly. Little by little the gut was listened to more and more. Then the Pixie became involved with a coven and began to work through all of her issues with insecurities, and actually began sharing little tidbits and insights with others….and ya know what? She was pretty freaking insightful! She started out a little tentatively with her advice…but, she eventually became aware of when it was truly a message that was to be relayed due to her abilities as an Empath and/or as a conduit for a message from the Divine.

This very thinly veiled story is, of course, autobiographical and chronicles my journey to trusting myself, and the information that lies within…whether that information has been acquired through academic study, life experience, Empathic ability, connection with Spirits/Ancestors, or Divine Intervention – the fact of the matter is: it’s correct, and is being shared for a reason. There is a phrase that has started being spread throughout those in coven, and spilling over to those without: Never doubt The Shawna. Seriously, folks are saying it…granted it’s not multitudes or anything, but still, it’s folks. lol

Anywhoooooo, here’s the part where I give YOU a bit of the stuffs that comes outta me, because y’all need to hear it. YOU can do the same thing. Yup, you can. You too have a gut that gives you inklings and nudges you in the right direction…BUT IT WON’T WORK UNLESS YOU LEARN TO FREAKING LISTEN TO IT AND THEN FOLLOW THROUGH!!!! OK, perhaps the caps were going a tad overboard…but I really don’t think so. You need to hear and heed this message. I am not wrong about this. It can be so incredibly hard to listen….especially because sometimes what your gut is telling you seems absolutely freaking NUTS. You might listen to it and think “NOPE! You’re wrong Mr./Miss Gut. There’s no F-ing WAY that is the course of action I should take. I don’t see how it will work, let alone lead to what I want.” Well, you see, that last bit is the kicker: It may not lead you where you WANT to go, but it sure as hell will lead you where you NEED to go.  (Pop Culture alert!) It’s kinda like what Idris (Who is actually the TARDIS) says to The Doctor in the episode of Doctor Who entitled “The Doctor’s Wife”:

I always take you where you need to go. #WednesdayWisdom #NeverDoubtTheShawna #DoctorWho

So, I guess what I’m saying is this: listen to your inner TARDIS…it will always take you where you need to go.

 

The #ForesightFriday Vibe for 8.15.15 - 8.21.15

Friday is upon us once more, and that means it’s time for me to see what lies ahead for us in the coming week. For me, this week has been a struggle…lots of minor frustrations, and a lack of “get up and go”. I was frequently taking moments, breathing in the fresh air to re-invigorate myself with the week’s Coffee energy. Truth be told, there was also MUCH imbibing of caffeinated beverages to keep this Pixie’s behind moving.

So, what is it we have to look forward to next week? Let’s find out.

Divination Tool Used: Sacred Circle Tarot

Card Drawn: 8 of Discs, Reversed

acred Circle Tarot: 8 of Discs, Reversed #ForesightFriday

Key Word(s): Focus, Perspective

My take on this card: The imagery of this card is 8 discs, 7 of which have been intricately carved. It indicates that there is a project underway…a project that has been taking a great deal of your attention.

The fact that this card was drawn in the reverse indicates that you may be focused a little too much on the details of what you are doing. It’s time to take a step back and take a look at the “Big Picture”. Think of it this way, if the devil (aka: the problem) is in the details, then perhaps enlightenment (aka: the solution) can be found with a change of perspective.

Look at the situation from a different angle. Are you using the right approach? Are you trying to control the situation a little too much? Are you using the proper tools? It might be time to break out of your comfort zone, use an unorthodox method, or just go with the flow and see where things go…rather than trying to force things to go your way.

The 8 of discs reversed also indicates that you may wish to use caution with your finances and try to curb your spending. Income is likely to be coming in in small increments, and saving what you can is  the prudent move at this time.  I’m not saying you can’t have any fun…just try not to blow all your cash all in one place.

So, get on out there and gain a little perspective! Hopefully, you’ll find that – much like the view of the Earth from space – things look a hell of a lot better…*cue Bette Midler*…from a distance. 😉

Your #ForesightFriday Briefing for 8/8/15 - 8/15/15It’s Friday again, so it’s time to take a peek at what next week has in store for us.

This week I pulled from my Nature’s Healing Oracle deck. So, here goes!

The Card Drawn: Coffee

Next week's energy is as stimulating as a good cuppa Joe!

Basic Message: The Stimulation of Life

Affirmation: Life Excites and Delights Me

My take on this card: I think this is going to be my kind of week! (If you don’t already know this about me, I pretty much LIVE for this amazing beverage.)It’s energy is as stimulating as a good ol’ cuppa Joe!

So, what can you expect? Well, the coffee card suggests that there will be plenty of exciting energy, making it possible to continue on with the plans you have laid. Run into a snag? Coffee energy is here to help! Coffee is not only a source of energy that helps us non-morning people cope in the modern world, it also helps us to remove blockages and that which is no longer necessary (Those of you who are coffee drinkers know what I mean 😉 ). It also helps us pare things down…removing the bloat, if you will, so that the task at hand is a tad easier to manage.

Take some time each day to focus on, and draw upon, the gifts that Coffee has to share with us. Take in what you need for the day. Whether it be the ability to eliminate obstacles, rid ourselves of excess, access that second wind, or even just to bounce around with a Tigger-like exuberance and be present and joyful.

I’m not saying the week will be all sunshine and lollipops…but it will certainly be lively, and if we use the energy Coffee provides wisely, we’ll get through everything just fine…and maybe even BETTER than fine.

Stay thirsty, my friends.

CoffeeLunatic

Tear Down That Wall So Your Awesome Shines Through! #WednesdayWisdomIf your empathic in any way, the title to this post may freak you out a bit. I totally get it. I used to keep myself so closed off it was NUTS! Any gifts that I have had practically stopped surfacing, I was not open to messages during my waking hours, which is why I was flooded with prophetic dreams for years. I ignored my need to be close to others…my need for others to SEE the REAL me. I was afraid of, not only who the real me might turn out to be, but afraid of how others would react.

Well, once I figured out that I was an Empath, I pretty much obliterated all of my defenses…that may not have been the wisest course of action, as I was now pretty defenseless, and had a hard time discerning my emotions from those of the people around me. Eventually I learned various shield techniques, as well as what stones & crystals would aid in keeping things in check.

There were some freaky moments in the time that it took me to get a hold of this whole, not only Empath me…but real whole package me. I started letting some of my shield down…and carrying fewer stones, because I realized I could now distinguish between my feelings and those of everyone else.

I still have a bit of a “psychic buffer up” but it doesn’t hide me from the world. I guess you could say I took a little advice from Faye Dunaway as Joan Crawford in Mommie Dearest. One of my favorite lines is when she and her new Pepsi Mogul hubby are having their NYC apartment renovated. The contractor says that “This bitch of a bearing wall is blocking my view”.

Joan contemplates this dilemma for a moment then replies, in a most dramatic fashion “Tear down that bitch of a bearing wall and put a window where it ought to be!” (Here, watch it, I LOVE IT! 😀 )

I guess that’s what my advice to all of you is this week. Whether you’ve built them because you’re an Empath, or because you’re afraid others will try to hurt you. TEAR DOWN THAT BITCH OF A BEARING WALL, and put a window to your Awesome where it ought to be!

When we are open to being viewed at our core, and to receiving the inner light of others, we all become a bit more connected. Our lives become more fulfilling. Will there be pain? Of course there will, human’s hurt other humans…even if we don’t mean to…that is the fragile nature of emotions.

However, you can learn from all of these newly heightened interactions, both good & bad, and use them to stoke that furnace O’ Awesome that is your spirit. This leaves you open to make some unbelievable connections with people.

I was fortunate enough to have let my walls down for a couple of people before I destroyed them…and they have resulted in the two most fulfilling relationships of my life. That with my best friend, and that with my husband. Since  my conscious and permanent destruction however, I have connected with SO many people. More than I ever would have thought possible. This introvert – YES, Introvert! – has expanded her “bubble of existence” to include heaps of folks. I’m SO glad I brought in the proverbial wrecking ball (Cue Miley Cyrus, LOL) and laid waste to my emotional bearing wall.

WreckingBall

I’m not sure if this is making any sense to anyone…but it hit home with me, so now you get to read it. LOL Feel free to comment or ask questions if you have any. I always love a good discussion! 😀

Your #ForesightFriday Forecast for 8/1/15 - 8/7/15This week, I was nudged to pull from my Goddess Guidance Oracle deck…so I did (ignoring nudges generally ends up with a cosmic frying pan to the head, and I try to avoid that, ’cause: OW! 😉 ).

The Card Drawn: Ostara

Ostara: Fertility (Goddess Guidance Oracle) #ForesightFriday

Key Word: Fertility

Basic Message: “It is the perfect time for you to start new projects, access new ideas, and give birth to new conditions.”

My take on this card: To me this is the perfect follow-up to all that magnificent grounding we did this past week. We are feeling calm, steady, nurtured, and renewed. It is now time to make use of the amazing groundwork (pun sort of intended, lol) we did, and create something from our patch of now fertile soil.

It’s time to ditch the dark doldrums and LET THERE BE LIGHT! Be a little goofy, release your inner Pixie, and relish in the joy of all the possibilities of life.

Clean up your mundane and spiritual habitat, and surround yourself with beauty. This act of purging that which is cluttering up your vibe will put a bit of a spring in your step, as well as make room for something new and wonderful. Oh yeah, that “new and wonderful” bit? That means it’s time to START something new and wonderful. So jump on all the fab vibes from tonight’s Blue Moon, as well as the energy Lughnasadh/Lammas brings us on Saturday, and work to create something awesome.

Catch Y’all on the flip side. Have a great week!

 

The #ForesightFriday 411 for 7/26/15 - 8/1/15This week I’m pulling a card from my “Secret Language of Animals” Oracle card deck…because that’s what nudged me the most this week.

And our card is *drumroll, please*: White Rhinoceros

The White Rhinoceros

Key words for this card are: Stability, Confidence, Steadiness, & Abundance

What this LMOUS (Land Mammal of Unusual Size 😉 ) is telling us: This coming week is a time to breathe deep and reconnect with the earth. Stand outside with your feet firmly planted upon Mother Earth while feeling the warmth of Father Sun upon your face. Take the time to feel their power…their constant, powerful presence…and how you are not only connected to them; but how you are connected to all things THROUGH them.

Take time for inner reflection, and realize your innate awesomeness. Replenish your spirit with the abundant energies of the Earth, while nurturing it with the simple – yet powerful – energies of the Earth Sun and Water. Stand proud, in quiet confidence, and know you have within you all the tools you require to get through this week, and all the weeks that follow.

Be sure to communicate with those you trust regarding your needs…but don’t be surprised if a seemingly unusual partnership pops up. They may not do things the way you do, but their gifts shall compliment yours, and anything resulting from you knocking your noggins together shall be Epic!

 

Have an awesome week, guys! 😀

 

Bob Kelso & Teddy Roosevelt Have a Message for You #WednesdayWisdom #ThePixilatedPathYou’re probably wondering what the HELL these two men (one of whom is a fictional character) could possibly have to tell you, jointly, that is somehow relevant to anything, let alone your life.  Well, I’m gonna tell you!

First, let’s replay a little scene from the NBC sitcom Scrubs and see what Bob Kelso – Chief of Medicine has to share:

Dr. Kelso: You are going to shut your damn yapper and listen for a change, because I got you pegged, sweetheart. You want to take the easy way out with the surgery because you’re scared. You’re scared because if you try and fail, there’s only you to blame. Well, Missy, let me break this down for you, Bobbo-style. Life is scary. Get used to it.
J.D.: [Narration] And then it seemed like Dr. Kelso wasn’t only talking to her.
Dr. Kelso: There are no magical fixes. It’s all up to you. So get up off your keister, get out of here, and go start doin’ the work.
Nell Goldman: What if it’s too hard?
Dr. Christopher Turk: Yeah, what if it’s too hard?
Dr. Kelso: Turkleton, I have no idea why you’re chiming in, but I’ll say this to both of you. Nothing in this world that’s worth having comes easy.

Now let’s take a look at something our 26th President had to say that relates to this:

“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.” – Theodore Roosevelt

They both boil down to something that popped out of my mouth in the car this evening when talking to a friend of mine who had a bit of a rough day “Nothing worth having is ever easy”.

It’s true. Relationships are difficult. Giving birth to your children is difficult. Work is difficult (that’s why it’s work, lol). Spiritual growth and development is WICKED DIFFICULT. All of these things are encapsulated in this little thing we call: LIFE…and we all know that life is downright f*ing difficult.

The point that I, the fictitious Chief of Medicine at good the ol’ North Hollywood Medical Center, and a former Commander in Chief are trying to make is this:

If you’re skating through your spiritual practice or any other aspect of your life with great ease, then chances are pretty damn good that you are not creating a very fulfilling life for yourself. You need to put in the work, learn the hard lessons, feel ALL THE FEELINGS, suffer losses, and face unpleasant truths about yourself and others. Only by experiencing the hard times can we experience the good with gratitude. Only by accepting, learning from, and learning to deal with – or even love – those aspects of ourselves that we once found frightening, freakish, controversial, etc. can we become more at peace and loving with ourselves, and are then able to place our True Selves in service of the Divine – resulting in a much more intimate and fulfilling spiritual relationship.

So what are you waiting for? It’s time to get to work. 😉

Sincerity & Quiet ConfidenceThese words popped into my head this morning, and I started to mull them over in my little brain. I figure, if they popped into my head, seemingly at random, then they deserved a bit of attention. This may, or may not, turn into another wordy ramble…let’s find out, shall we?

Why these words? Why in this configuration? What does this mean to me?

Well, obviously (if you know anything about me from this Blog O’Mine at all) sincerity is something I value…and kind of require, from those in my life. However, I started to think of it on a more personal, and spiritual level. Meaning this: It is important for me to be sincere with those I interact with as well….but, even more important, I need to be sincere in my Faith.

“Is a faith without action a sincere faith?” Jean Racine

I feel I have been sincere in my faith, especially in the spirit of the Jean Racine quote above. I do what I can to serve my community and my deities…and find new ways to do this all the time. Don’t think you’ve got to spend all day at a soup kitchen, or in front of your altar for that matter, in order to do this. Simply doing what you can to help others, or to brighten their day. Yup, that dirty joke that pops into your head just might be the thing to salvage somebody’s otherwise craptastic day – so, I say spit it out already (Although, you should “know your audience” in this regard, LOL.). Hold a door for someone, pick up that piece of trash in the parking lot, send healing energy to those that have requested it, listen to someone who needs an ear…whatever. A little kindness and compassion go a long way, and doing it all without judgement is what brings it all back around to being sincere in your actions, and therefore your faith.

On to the second half of my message from Divine today: Quiet Confidence. I just recently realized just how important confidence is to my practice. I spent so many years as a child blocking off my gifts, that it took an awful long time to embrace them as an integral part of me.  With practice, along with sharing what I’ve learned with those that could benefit, I’ve come to no longer doubt, not only what is possible, but what is possible for ME to achieve. I know I still have much more to learn, and that there is far more potential to be unlocked…but I am no longer afraid that I’ll fail. I now know that if I do not succeed right away, I simply need to work on it more…it is a set-back, not a failure. All things happen in their own time. We may wish for them to happen quicker…but we do not always wish for things that we are ready for. 😉

“We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face…we must do that which we think we cannot.” Eleanor Roosevelt

Every scary thing I have encountered and successfully gotten past has made me stronger, and more confident. I look at my past self and I see, though I rarely showed it outwardly, a person who was scared of whatever life had waiting around the corner. “I can’t handle this”, “I don’t think I can do that”, “What if I screw up?”, “What if I get the wrong answer?”…these used to constantly flood my mind, and my life was nowhere near as rewarding as I would have liked.

Now? Well, since I have learned to take a deep breath and plunge headlong into the very thing that terrifies me, I have had a much more fulfilling life. What are some of the things that scared the bejeebers outta me? Well: Meeting new people (especially in large groups), taking Wicca 1 (I wanted to excel so badly, the fear of failure nearly paralyzed me), joining a coven, leading a ritual…shoot, the list goes on and on. The point is, I fought my way through the fear and anxiety to achieve these things, and with each success, the level of fear and anxiety I feel upon embarking on a new adventure becomes less and less.

“Therefore, let us not despair, but instead, survey the position, consider carefully the action we must take, and then address ourselves to our common task in a mood of sober resolution and quiet confidence, without resolution and without pause.” Arthur Henderson

Being sincere in your life & faith, and becoming filled with quiet – not overtly boastful – confidence will help you to be able to do whatever the Universe throws at you next…

 

NormalI have not posted in a long while. It’s been a tough year, and the last few weeks have been particularly difficult…and will probably continue to be so. But, this week I feel the NEED to write, and I’m going to warn you now, this could be my wordiest post yet.

Yesterday, as anyone who hasn’t been living in complete and total seclusion knows (therefore if you’re reading this you are not one of those unlikely few) Robin Williams took his own life. Many of you may feel as though you are sick of hearing about it and that is, of course, your prerogative…but I need to bring it up, because it hit me monumentally hard.

It may seem silly to some, especially since I don’t normally subscribe to “celebrity worship”, but I always identified with Robin. Like many of you, I grew up watching him on Mork & Mindy. He never failed to brighten my day. I was one of those who would get mocked for being a bit different. I had an extra curvy spine due to scoliosis, walked on my tip-toes, had freckles, was goofy and awkward, and my opinions didn’t always fall in line with everyone else. So to see Robin bring Mork to life every week, and to have Mindy and the others love him despite his odd behavior, and sometimes because of it, meant the world to me. Mork was nowhere near “normal”, and that helped…a lot.

Later on, I watched his stand-up and learned that not only was he funny, but he was incredibly intelligent. I was also never confused at how he was able to connect A to B by way of L, M, D, R, Sasquatch and the square root of 144. As someone with a completely non-linear, A.D.D. riddled brain I could see and understand his train of thought. The comedy he wrote and performed also let us know he had his own demons to fight…and that although he was laughing, it was indeed a fight. Most importantly, though some of our struggles were different, he let me know I wasn’t the only one struggling…and it helped.

I have suffered through varying degrees of depression for most of my life. Some periods were darker than others. Yes, suicide was contemplated, and attempted. The reasons behind the attempts seem silly now, but the feelings that those reasons spurred into life were overwhelming and all consuming. Luckily, I had enough friends that gave a shit, and they helped me climb out of the depths.

The years went on, and my struggles continued. Through it all, Robin was there with a new role. Whether the film was a comedy or a drama, his portrayal held a bit of both. I could always see, in those moments when his character was contemplating this or that…dealing with adversity…dealing with tragedy…struggling with identity, that he was drawing from his own experiences. Not old experiences of his younger days, but the day to day struggle to just get through the day, and to feel as though you deserved to have done so.

So, to me, Robin Williams represented Hope. Hope that it gets better, hope that I can get through it…because “If Robin can, anyone can.” Unfortunately, it was too much for him on that day…he was unable to ride that dark wave to the shore where he would have felt stable again.

I am not the only one who was shaken to the core by the news. Nothing I feel can possibly compare to what his friends and family are going through, but that does not make the pain that I and others are feeling any less real.

Today I decided to remember his brilliance by watching some of his movies, reading some of his quotes, and creating a cover photo for my facebook page that features him and a quote. I also decided that it’s time to stop looking to others for Hope. I need to find it within myself…and I think I have. Robin is still an inspiration. He hung on for so many years, and provided joy and kindness to so many along the way. He was compassionate, he was generous, he was not the Norm.

So many with depression say things like “I just want to feel normal”. Through all that I have been through, I have never even entertained this notion. Why? Normal is defined as “conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected”…Who wants to be “typical”? I don’t, that’s for sure. I don’t believe that everyone should embark on this  Quest to be Normal. That’s just setting yourself up for a whole heap of self-loathing and living a dull life. Trust me, these are not good things for the one who is severely depressed. I think what we are really looking for (but may not be able to voice) is a Quest to Acceptance & Understanding…a Quest to Self…a Quest to Peace.

As we that struggle continue on, we will have good days, and bad. We will know others that shall have the same.  Remember as you move through your life that just because someone is smiling and laughing, it doesn’t mean they are not suffering. Everyone suffers, to different degrees, but everyone does. So whether or not you know someone is dealing with mental illness, be kind. Show compassion. Listen. Reach out sincerely. Share your own experiences if it seems like it will help, and keep your mouth shut when it won’t. Offer distractions. Be supportive.

Whatever you do, don’t tell someone to just “get over it” or to just “be happy”…if it were really THAT simple, don’t you think we would have tried that already? Ask how you can help, do not tell them they’re being silly, or that they just need to “Pray more”. Granted, I’d say a good 99.9% of you reading this are pagans, and pushing prayer isn’t usually something we do…but, sometimes it happens. lol

Yes, a person’s faith – whatever it may be – may help from time to time…but it is not a cure. To try and peddle it as such is irresponsible, and could prove to be outright dangerous should one’s prayers not be answered in a way they would like.

If you are suffering, reach out, write or speak your feelings to someone (it sure helps me at least), do what makes you happy, avoid alcohol when you feel yourself sliding into the pit (even if you’re NOT an alcoholic…it can lead to bad things), sing, paint, crochet – whatever floats your boat….and if you need to cry for a while? That’s ok too. There is no one “magic treatment” that will make all your troubles disappear. All we can do is survive them. Just like that old Zen Proverb says “Fall down seven times. Get up Eight”.

Striving for “Normal” is just making yourself feel as though YOU aren’t good enough, but you know what? YOU ARE! As a dear friend likes to say “Let your Freak Flag fly!” Embrace what it is that makes you, YOU. Celebrate your differences, because if everyone was the same, we would never have any change and there would be nothing new. Nothing would ever get better… everything would be boring. Who the hell wants a life that is stagnant and boring?? I don’t.

“The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. Hey. The good things don’t always soften the bad things, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.” The Doctor (From Doctor Who’s: Vincent and the Doctor)

Add to your own Pile of Good Things as often as possible, be sure to add to the good piles of others as well. If it all starts to feel like too much, PLEASE, seek help. It may feel like nobody CAN help, but reach out anyway.

I wish you all Peace, Love, Understanding, and the continued Strength to find out how Amazing you can be.

 

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National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

National Hopeline Network: 1-800-442-4673

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